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No one in Alpine had said hello； Bud； when he came walking in that day。 The postmaster bad given him one measuring glance when he had weighed the package of ore； but he had not spoken except to name the amount of postage required。 The bartender had made some remark about the weather； and had smiled with a surface friendliness that did not deceive Bud for a moment。 He knew too well that the smile was not for him； but for his patronage。
He watched the game。 And when the man opposite him pushed back his chair and； looking up at Bud； asked if he wanted to sit in； Bud went and sat down； buying a dollar's worth of chips as an evidence of his intention to play。 His interest in the game was not keen。 He played for the feeling it gave him of being one of the bunch； a man among his friends； or if not friends； at least acquaintances。 And； such was his varying luck with the cards； he played for an hour or so without having won enough to irritate his companions。 Wherefore he rose from the table at supper time calling one young fellow Frank quite naturally。 They went to the Alpine House and had supper together； and after that they sat in the office and talked about automobiles for an hour； which gave Bud a comforting sense of having fallen among friends。
Later they strolled over to a picture show which ran films two years behind their first release； and charged fifteen cents for the privilege of watching them。 It was the first theater Bud had entered since he left San Jose； and at the last minute he hesitated； tempted to turn back。 He hated moving pictures。 They always had love scenes somewhere in the story； and love scenes hurt。 But Frank had already bought two tickets； and it seemed unfriendly to turn back now。 He went inside to the jangling of a player…piano in dire need of a tuner's service； and sat down near the back of the hall with his hat upon his lifted knees which could have used more space between the seats。
While they waited for the program they talked in low tones； a mumble of commonplaces。 Bud forgot for the moment his distaste for such places； and let himself slip easily back into the old thought channels； the old habits of relaxation after a day's work was done。 He laughed at the one…reel comedy that had for its climax a chase of housemaids； policemen； and outraged fruit vendors after a well…meaning but unfortunate lover。 He saw the lover pulled ignominiously out of a duck pond and soused relentlessly into a watering trough； and laughed with Frank and called it some picture。
He eyed a succession of 〃current events〃 long since gone stale out where the world moved swifter than here in the mountains； and he felt as though he had come once more into close touch with life。 All the dull months he had spent with Cash and the burros dwarfed into a pointless； irrelevant incident of his life。 He felt that he ought to be out in the world； doing bigger things than hunting gold that somehow always refused at the last minute to be found。 He stirred restlessly。 He was freethere was nothing to hold him if he wanted to go。 The warhe believed he would go over and take a hand。 He could drive an ambulance or a truck
Current Events； however； came abruptly to an end； and presently Bud's vagrant； half…formed desire for achievement merged into biting recollections。 Here was a love drama； three reels of it。 At first Bud watched it with only a vague； disquieting sense of familiarity。 Then abruptly he recalled too vividly the time and circumstance of his first sight of the picture。 It was in San Jose； at the Liberty。 He and Marie had been married two days； and were living in that glamorous world of the honeymoon； so poignantly sweet； so marvelousand so fleeting。 He had whispered that the girl looked like her； and she had leaned heavily against his shoulder。 In the dusk of lowered lights their hands had groped and found each other； and clung。
The girl did look like Marie。 When she turned her head with that little tilt of the chin； when she smiled； she was like Marie。 Bud leaned forward； staring； his brows drawn together； breathing the short； quick breaths of emotion focussed upon one object； excluding all else。 Once； when Frank moved his body a little in the next seat； Bud's hand went out that way involuntarily。 The touch of Frank's rough coat sleeve recalled him brutally； so that he drew away with a wincing movement as though he bad been hurt。
All those months in the desert； all those months of the slow journeying northward； all the fought battles with memory； when he thought that he had wonall gone for nothing； their slow anodyne serving but to sharpen now the bite of merciless remembering。 His hand shook upon his knee。 Small beads of moisture oozed out upon his forehead。 He sat stunned before the amazing revelation of how little time and distance had done to heal his hurt。
He wanted Marie。 He wanted her more than he had ever wanted her in the old days； with a tenderness； an impulse to shield her from her own weaknesses； her own mistakes。 Thenin those old days there had been the glamor of mystery that is called romance。 That was gone； worn away by the close intimacies of matrimony。 He knew her faults； he knew how she looked when she was angry and petulant。 He knew how little the real Marie resembled the speciously amiable； altogether attractive Marie who faced a smiling world when she went pleasuring。 He knew； buthe wanted her just the same。 He wanted to tell her so many things about the burros； and about the desertthings that would make her laugh； and things that would make her blink back the tears。 He was homesick for her as he had never been homesick in his life before。 The picture flickered on through scene after scene that Bud did not see at all； though he was staring unwinkingly at the screen all the while。 The love scenes at the last were poignantly real； but they passed before his eyes unnoticed。 Bud's mind was dwelling upon certain love scenes of his own。 He was feeling Marie's presence beside him there in the dusk。
〃Poor kidshe wasn't so much to blame；〃 he muttered just above his breath； when the screen was swept clean and blank at the end of the last reel。
〃Huh？ Oh； he was the big mutt； right from the start；〃 Frank replied with the assured air of a connoisseur。 〃He didn't have the brains of a bluejay； or he'd have known all the time she was strong for him。〃
〃I guess that's right；〃 Bud mumbled； but he did not mean what Frank thought he meant。 〃Let's go。 I want a drink。〃
Frank was willing enough； too willing； if the truth were known。 They went out into the cool starlight； and hurried across the side street that was no more than a dusty roadway； to the saloon where they had spent the afternoon。 Bud called for whisky； and helped himself twice from the bottle which the bartender placed between them。 He did not speak until the second glass was emptied； and then he turned to Frank with a purple glare in his eyes。
〃Let's have a game of pool or something；〃 he suggested。
〃There's a good poker game going； back there；〃 vouchsafed the bartender； turning his thumb toward the rear； where half a dozen men were gathered in a close group around a table。 〃There's some real money in sight； to…night。〃
〃All right； let's go see。〃 Bud turned that way； Frank following like a pet dog at his heels。
At dawn the next morning； Bud got up stiffly from the chair where he had spent the night。 His eyeballs showed a network of tiny red veins； swollen with the surge of alcohol in his blood and with the strain of staring all night at the cards。 Beneath his eyes were puffy ridges。 His cheekbones flamed with the whisky flush。 He cashed in a double…handful of chips； stuffed the money he had won into his coat pocket； walked； with that stiff precision of gait by which a drunken man strives to hide his drunkenness； to the bar and had another drink。 Frank was at his elbow。 Frank was staggering； garrulous； laughing a great deal over very small jokes。
〃I'm going to bed；〃 said Bud； his tongue forming the words with a slow carefulness。
〃Come over to my shack； Budrotten hotel。 My bed's clean； anyway。〃 Frank laughed and plucked him by the sleeve。
〃All right；〃 Bud consented gravely。 〃We'll take a bottle along。〃
CHAPTER TEN。 EMOTIONS ARE TRICKY THINGS
A man's mind is a tricky thingor； speaking more exactly； a man's emotions are tricky things。 Love has come rushing to the beck of a tip…tilted chin； or the tone of a voice； or the droop of an eyelid。 It has fled for cause as slight。 Sometimes it runs before resentment for a real or fancied wrong； but then； if you have observed it closely； you will see that quite frequently； when anger grows slow of foot； or dies of slow starvation； love steals back； all unsuspected and unbiddenand mayhap causes much distress by his return。 It is like a sudden resurrection of all the loved； long…mourned dead that sleep so serenely in their tended plots。 Loved though they were and long mourned； think of the consternation if they all came trooping back to take their old places in life！ The old places that have been filled； most of them； by others who are loved as dearly； who would be mourned if they were taken away。
Psychologists will tell us all about the subconscious mind； the hidden loves and hates an