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s precarious situation； he felt that he could not bring himself to renounce the pleasures of this extravagant life； and decided that he must continue it at all costs。 His dreams of obtaining a fortune appeared more and more chimerical； and the real obstacles grew more formidable。 His initiation into the secrets of the Nucingen household had revealed to him that if he were to attempt to use this love affair as a means of mending his fortunes； he must swallow down all sense of decency； and renounce all the generous ideas which redeem the sins of youth。 He had chosen this life of apparent splendor； but secretly gnawed by the canker worm of remorse； a life of fleeting pleasure dearly paid for by persistent pain； like Le Distrait of La Bruyere； he had descended so far as to make his bed in a ditch； but （also like Le Distrait） he himself was uncontaminated as yet by the mire that stained his garments。
〃So we have killed our mandarin； have we？〃 said Bianchon one day as they left the dinner table。
〃Not yet；〃 he answered； 〃but he is at his last gasp。〃
The medical student took this for a joke； but it was not a jest。 Eugene had dined in the house that night for the first time for a long while； and had looked thoughtful during the meal。 He had taken his place beside Mlle。 Taillefer； and stayed through the dessert； giving his neighbor an expressive glance from time to time。 A few of the boarders discussed the walnuts at the table； and others walked about the room； still taking part in the conversation which had begun among them。 People usually went when they chose； the amount of time that they lingered being determined by the amount of interest that the conversation possessed for them； or by the difficulty of the process of digestion。 In winter…time the room was seldom empty before eight o'clock； when the four women had it all to themselves； and made up for the silence previously imposed upon them by the preponderating masculine element。 This evening Vautrin had noticed Eugene's abstractedness； and stayed in the room； though he had seemed to be in a hurry to finish his dinner and go。 All through the talk afterwards he had kept out of the sight of the law student； who quite believed that Vautrin had left the room。 He now took up his position cunningly in the sitting…room instead of going when the last boarders went。 He had fathomed the young man's thoughts； and felt that a crisis was at hand。 Rastignac was； in fact； in a dilemma； which many another young man must have known。
Mme。 de Nucingen might love him； or might merely be playing with him； but in either case Rastignac had been made to experience all the alternations of hope and despair of genuine passion； and all the diplomatic arts of a Parisienne had been employed on him。 After compromising herself by continually appearing in public with Mme。 de Beauseant's cousin she still hesitated； and would not give him the lover's privileges which he appeared to enjoy。 For a whole month she had so wrought on his senses； that at last she had made an impression on his heart。 If in the earliest days the student had fancied himself to be master； Mme。 de Nucingen had since become the stronger of the two； for she had skilfully roused and played upon every instinct； good or bad； in the two or three men comprised in a young student in Paris。 This was not the result of deep design on her part； nor was she playing a part； for women are in a manner true to themselves even through their grossest deceit； because their actions are prompted by a natural impulse。 It may have been that Delphine； who had allowed this young man to gain such an ascendency over her； conscious that she had been too demonstrative； was obeying a sentiment of dignity； and either repented of her concessions； or it pleased her to suspend them。 It is so natural to a Parisienne； even when passion has almost mastered her； to hesitate and pause before taking the plunge； to probe the heart of him to whom she intrusts her future。 And once already Mme。 de Nucingen's hopes had been betrayed； and her loyalty to a selfish young lover had been despised。 She had good reason to be suspicious。 Or it may have been that something in Eugene's manner （for his rapid success was making a coxcomb of him） had warned her that the grotesque nature of their position had lowered her somewhat in his eyes。 She doubtless wished to assert her dignity； he was young； and she would be great in his eyes； for the lover who had forsaken her had held her so cheap that she was determined that Eugene should not think her an easy conquest； and for this very reasonhe knew that de Marsay had been his predecessor。 Finally； after the degradation of submission to the pleasure of a heartless young rake； it was so sweet to her to wander in the flower…strewn realms of love； that it was not wonderful that she should wish to dwell a while on the prospect； to tremble with the vibrations of love； to feel the freshness of the breath of its dawn。 The true lover was suffering for the sins of the false。 This inconsistency is unfortunately only to be expected so long as men do not know how many flowers are mown down in a young woman's soul by the first stroke of treachery。
Whatever her reasons may have been； Delphine was playing with Rastignac； and took pleasure in playing with him； doubtless because she felt sure of his love； and confident that she could put an end to the torture as soon as it was her royal pleasure to do so。 Eugene's self…love was engaged； he could not suffer his first passage of love to end in a defeat； and persisted in his suit like a sportsman determined to bring down at least one partridge to celebrate his first Feast of Saint…Hubert。 The pressure of anxiety； his wounded self…love； his despair； real or feigned； drew him nearer and nearer to this woman。 All Paris credited him with this conquest； and yet he was conscious that he had made no progress since the day when he saw Mme。 de Nucingen for the first time。 He did not know as yet that a woman's coquetry is sometimes more delightful than the pleasure of secure possession of her love； and was possessed with helpless rage。 If； at this time； while she denied herself to love； Eugene gathered the springtide spoils of his life； the fruit； somewhat sharp and green； and dearly bought； was no less delicious to the taste。 There were moments when he had not a sou in his pockets； and at such times he thought in spite of his conscience of Vautrin's offer and the possibility of fortune by a marriage with Mlle。 Taillefer。 Poverty would clamor so loudly that more than once he was on the point of yielding to the cunning temptations of the terrible sphinx； whose glance had so often exerted a strange spell over him。
Poiret and Mlle。 Michonneau went up to their rooms； and Rastignac； thinking that he was alone with the women in the dining…room； sat between Mme。 Vauquer and Mme。 Couture； who was nodding over the woolen cuffs that she was knitting by the stove； and looked at Mlle。 Taillefer so tenderly that she lowered her eyes。
〃Can you be in trouble； M。 Eugene？〃 Victorine said after a pause。
〃Who has not his troubles？〃 answered Rastignac。 〃If we men were sure of being loved； sure of a devotion which would be our reward for the sacrifices which we are always ready to make； then perhaps we should have no troubles。〃
For answer Mlle。 Taillefer only gave him a glance but it was impossible to mistake its meaning。
〃You； for instance； mademoiselle； you feel sure of your heart to… day； but are you sure that it will never change？〃
A smile flitted over the poor girl's lips； it seemed as if a ray of light from her soul had lighted up her face。 Eugene was dismayed at the sudden explosion of feeling caused by his words。
〃Ah！ but suppose；〃 he said； 〃that you should be rich and happy to…morrow； suppose that a vast fortune dropped down from the clouds for you； would you still love the man whom you loved in your days of poverty？〃
A charming movement of the head was her only answer。
〃Even if he were very poor？〃
Again the same mute answer。
〃What nonsense are you talking； you two？〃 exclaimed Mme。 Vauquer。
〃Never mind；〃 answered Eugene； 〃we understand each other。〃
〃So there is to be an engagement of marriage between M。 le Chevalier Eugene de Rastignac and Mlle。 Victorine Taillefer； is there？〃 The words were uttered in Vautrin's deep voice； and Vautrin appeared at the door as he spoke。
〃Oh！ how you startled me！〃 Mme。 Couture and Mme。 Vauquer exclaimed together。
〃I might make a worse choice；〃 said Rastignac； laughing。 Vautrin's voice had thrown him into the most painful agitation that he had yet known。
〃No bad jokes； gentlemen！〃 said Mme。 Couture。 〃My dear； let us go upstairs。〃
Mme。 Vauquer followed the two ladies； meaning to pass the evening in their room； an arrangement that economized fire and candlelight。 Eugene and Vautrin were left alone。
〃I felt sure you would come round to it；〃 said the elder man with the coolness that nothing seemed to shake。 〃But stay a moment！ I have as much delicacy as anybody else。 Don't make up your mind on the spur of the moment； you are a little thrown off your balance just now。 You are in debt； and I want you to come over to my way of thinking after sober reflection； and not i