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Margaret made her perceive that the doctor was smiling； and she
changed her tone； and earnestly begged to be told what they thought
of the case； for if she should show her concern at home； her father
and governess would immediately beg her to cease from all connection
with the school； and she did not feel at all convinced that Mrs。
Wilmot liked to have her there。 Feeling injured by the implied
accusation of mismanagement； yet； with a sense of its truth； used to
be petted； and new to rebuffs； yet with a sincere wish to act
rightly； she was much perplexed by this； her first reverse； and had
come partly with the view of consulting Flora； though she had fallen
on other counsellors。
〃Margaret； our adviser general；〃 said the doctor； 〃what do you say？
Put yourself in the place of Mrs。 Charles Wilmot； and say； shall Miss
Rivers teach or not？〃
〃I had rather you would； papa。〃
〃Not II never kept school。〃
〃Well； then； I being Mrs。 Wilmot； should certainly be mortified if
Miss Rivers deserted me because the children were naughty。 I think；
I think I had rather she came and asked me what she had better do。〃
〃And you would answer 'teach；' for fear of vexing her；〃 said Meta。
〃I should； and also for the sake of letting her learn to teach。〃
〃The point where only trial shows one's ignorance；〃 said Dr。 May。
〃But I don't want to do it for my own sake；〃 said Meta。 〃I do
everything for my own sake already。〃
〃For theirs； then；〃 said the doctor。 〃If teaching will not come by
nature； you must serve an apprenticeship； if you mean to be of
service in that line。 Perhaps it was the gift that the fairies
omitted。〃
〃But will it do any good to them？〃
〃I can't tell； but I am sure it would do them harm for you to give it
up； because it is disagreeable。〃
〃Well；〃 said Meta； with a sigh； 〃I'll go and talk to Mrs。 Wilmot。 I
could not bear to give up anything that seems right just now； because
of the Confirmation。〃
Margaret eagerly inquired； and it appeared that the bishop had given
notice for a Confirmation in August； and that Mr。 Wilmot was already
beginning to prepare his candidates； whilst Mr。 Ramsden； always
tardy； never gave notice till the last moment possible。 The hope was
expressed that Harry might be able to profit by this opportunity； and
Harry's prospects were explained to Meta； then the doctor；
recollecting something that he wished to say to Mr。 Rivers； began to
ask about the chance of his coming before the time of an engagement
of his own。
〃He said he should be here at about half…past four；〃 said Meta。 〃He
is gone to the station to inquire about the trains。 Do you know what
time the last comes in？〃
〃At nine forty…five；〃 said the doctor。
〃That is what we were afraid of。 It is for Bellairs； my maid。 Her
mother is very ill； and she is afraid she is not properly nursed。 It
is about five miles from the Milbury Station； and we thought of
letting her go with a day…ticket to see about her。 She could go in
the morning； after I am up； but I don't know what is to be done； for
she could not get back before I dress for dinner。〃
Margaret felt perfectly aghast at the cool tone； especially after
what had passed。
〃It would be quite impossible；〃 said the doctor。 〃Even going by the
eight o'clock train； and returning by the last； she would only have
two hours to spareshort enough measure for a sick mother。〃
〃Papa means to give her whatever she wants for any nurse she may
get。〃
〃Is there no one with her mother now？〃
〃A son's wife； who； they think； is not kind。 Poor Bellairs was so
grateful for being allowed to go home。 I wonder if I could dress for
once without her？〃
〃Do you know old Crabbe？〃 said the doctor。
〃The dear old man at Abbotstoke？ Oh； yes； of course。〃
〃There was a very sad case in his family。 The mother was dying of a
lingering illness； when the son met with a bad accident。 The only
daughter was a lady's…maid； and could not be spared； though the
brother was half crazy to see her； and there was no one to tend them
but a wretch of a woman； paid by the parish。 The poor fellow kept
calling for his sister in his delirium； and； at last； I could not
help writing to the mistress。〃
〃Did she let her come？〃 said Meta； her cheek glowing。
〃As a great favour； she let her set out by the mail train； after
dressing her for a ball； with orders to return in time for her
toilette for an evening party the next day。〃
〃Oh； I remember；〃 said Margaret； 〃her coming here at five in the
morning； and your taking her home。〃
〃And when we got to Abbotstoke the brother was dead。 That parish
nurse had not attended to my directions； and； I do believe； was the
cause of it。 The mother had had a seizure； and was in the most
precarious state。〃
〃Surely she stayed！〃
〃It was as much as her place was worth；〃 said the doctor； 〃and her
wages were the chief maintenance of the family。 So she had to go
back to dress her mistress； while the old woman lay there； wailing
after Betsy。 She did give warning then； but； before the month was
out； the mother was dead。〃
Meta did not speak； and Dr。 May presently rose； saying he should try
to meet Mr。 Rivers in the town； and went out。 Meta sat thoughtful；
and at last； sighing； said； 〃I wonder whether Bellairs's mother is so
very ill？ I have a great mind to let Susan try to do my hair； and
let Bellairs stay a little longer。 I never thought of that。〃
〃I do not think you will be sorry；〃 said Margaret。
〃Yes； I shall； for if my hair does not look nice； papa will not be
pleased； and there is Aunt Leonora coming。 How odd it will be to be
without Bellairs！ I will ask Mrs。 Larpent。〃
〃Oh； yes！〃 said Margaret。 〃You must not think we meant to advise；
but papa has seen so many instances of distress； from servants not
spared to their friends in illness； that he feels strongly on the
subject。〃
〃And I really might have been as cruel as that woman！〃 said Meta。
〃Well； I hope Mrs。 Bellairs may be better； and able to spare her
daughter。 I don't know what will become of me without her。〃
〃I think it will have been a satisfaction in one way；〃 said
Margaret。〃
〃In what way？〃
〃Don't you remember what you began by complaining of； that you could
not be of use？ Now； I fancy this would give you the pleasure of
undergoing a little personal inconvenience for the good of another。〃
Meta looked half puzzled； half thoughtful； and Margaret； who was a
little uneasy at the style of counsel she found herself giving；
changed the conversation。
It was a memorable one to little Miss Rivers； opening out to her； as
did almost all her meetings with that family； a new scope for thought
and for duty。 The code to which she had been brought up taught that
servants were the machines of their employer's convenience。 Good…
nature occasioned much kindliness of manner and intercourse； and
every luxury and indulgence was afforded freely； but where there was
any want of accordance between the convenience of the two parties；
there was no question。 The master must be the first object； the
servants' remedy was in their own hands。
Amiable as was Mr。 Rivers； this； merely from indulgence and want of
reflection； was his principle； and his daughter had only been acting
on it； though she did not know it； till the feelings that she had
never thought of were thus displayed before her。 These were her
first practical lessons that life was not meant to be passed in
pleasing ourselves； and being good…natured at small cost。
It was an effort。 Meta was very dependent； never having been
encouraged to be otherwise； and Bellairs was like a necessary of life
in her estimation； but strength of principle came to aid her
naturally kind…hearted feeling； and she was pleased by the idea of
voluntarily undergoing a privation so as to test her sincerity。
So when her father told her of the inconvenient times of the trains；
and declared that Bellairs must give it up； she answered by proposing
to let her sleep a night or two there； gaily promised to manage very
well； and satisfied him。
Her maid's grateful looks and thanks recompensed her when she made
the offer to her； and inspirited her to an energetic coaxing of Mrs。
Larpent； who； being more fully aware than her father of the
needfulness of the lady's…maid； and also very anxious that her
darling should appear to the best advantage before the expected aunt；
Lady Leonora Langdale； was unwilling to grant more than one night at
the utmost。
Meta carried the day； and her last assurance to Bellairs was that she
might stay as long as seemed necessary to make her mother
comfortable。
Thereupon Meta found herself more helpful in some matters than she
had expected； but at a loss in others。 Susan； with all Mrs。
Larpent's supervision； could not quite bring her dress to the air
that was so peculiarly graceful and becoming； and she often caught
her papa's eye looking at her as if he saw something amiss； and could
not discover what it was。 Then came Aunt Leonora； always very kind
to Meta； but the dread of the rest of the household； whom she was
wont to lecture on the proper care of her niece。 Miss Rivers was
likely to have a considerable fortune； and Lady