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after music。 She had not really appreciated the clergyman's wit；
nor the suggestive twitterings of Miss Alan。 Conversation was
tedious； she wanted something big； and she believed that it would
have come to her on the wind…swept platform of an electric tram。
This she might not attempt。 It was unladylike。 Why？ Why were most
big things unladylike？ Charlotte had once explained to her why。
It was not that ladies were inferior to men； it was that they
were different。 Their mission was to inspire others to
achievement rather than to achieve themselves。 Indirectly； by
means of tact and a spotless name； a lady could accomplish much。
But if she rushed into the fray herself she would be first
censured； then despised； and finally ignored。 Poems had been
written to illustrate this point。
There is much that is immortal in this medieval lady。 The dragons
have gone； and so have the knights； but still she lingers in our
midst。 She reigned in many an early Victorian castle； and was
Queen of much early Victorian song。 It is sweet to protect her in
the intervals of business； sweet to pay her honour when she has
cooked our dinner well。 But alas！ the creature grows degenerate。
In her heart also there are springing up strange desires。 She too
is enamoured of heavy winds； and vast panoramas； and green
expanses of the sea。 She has marked the kingdom of this world；
how full it is of wealth； and beauty； and wara radiant crust；
built around the central fires； spinning towards the receding
heavens。 Men； declaring that she inspires them to it； move
joyfully over the surface； having the most delightful meetings
with other men； happy； not because they are masculine； but
because they are alive。 Before the show breaks up she would like
to drop the august title of the Eternal Woman； and go there as
her transitory self。
Lucy does not stand for the medieval lady； who was rather an
ideal to which she was bidden to lift her eyes when feeling
serious。 Nor has she any system of revolt。 Here and there a
restriction annoyed her particularly； and she would transgress
it； and perhaps be sorry that she had done so。 This afternoon she
was peculiarly restive。 She would really like to do something of
which her well…wishers disapproved。 As she might not go on the
electric tram； she went to Alinari's shop。
There she bought a photograph of Botticelli's 〃Birth of Venus。〃
Venus； being a pity； spoilt the picture； otherwise so charming；
and Miss Bartlett had persuaded her to do without it。 （A pity in
art of course signified the nude。） Giorgione's 〃Tempesta；〃 the
〃Idolino；〃 some of the Sistine frescoes and the Apoxyomenos；
were added to it。 She felt a little calmer then； and bought Fra
Angelico's 〃Coronation；〃 Giotto's 〃Ascension of St。 John；〃 some
Della Robbia babies； and some Guido Reni Madonnas。 For her taste
was catholic； and she extended uncritical approval to every
well…known name。
But though she spent nearly seven lire； the gates of liberty
seemed still unopened。 She was conscious of her discontent； it
was new to her to be conscious of it。 〃The world；〃 she thought；
〃is certainly full of beautiful things； if only I could come
across them。〃 It was not surprising that Mrs。 Honeychurch
disapproved of music； declaring that it always left her daughter
peevish； unpractical； and touchy。
〃Nothing ever happens to me；〃 she reflected； as she entered the
Piazza Signoria and looked nonchalantly at its marvels； now
fairly familiar to her。 The great square was in shadow； the
sunshine had come too late to strike it。 Neptune was already
unsubstantial in the twilight； half god； half ghost； and his
fountain plashed dreamily to the men and satyrs who idled
together on its marge。 The Loggia showed as the triple entrance
of a cave； wherein many a deity； shadowy； but immortal； looking
forth upon the arrivals and departures of mankind。 It was the
hour of unrealitythe hour； that is； when unfamiliar things are
real。 An older person at such an hour and in such a place might
think that sufficient was happening to him； and rest content。
Lucy desired more。
She fixed her eyes wistfully on the tower of the palace； which
rose out of the lower darkness like a pillar of roughened gold。
It seemed no longer a tower； no longer supported by earth； but
some unattainable treasure throbbing in the tranquil sky。 Its
brightness mesmerized her； still dancing before her eyes when she
bent them to the ground and started towards home。
Then something did happen。
Two Italians by the Loggia had been bickering about a debt。
〃Cinque lire；〃 they had cried； 〃cinque lire！〃 They sparred at
each other； and one of them was hit lightly upon the chest。 He
frowned； he bent towards Lucy with a look of interest； as if he
had an important message for her。 He opened his lips to deliver
it； and a stream of red came out between them and trickled down
his unshaven chin。
That was all。 A crowd rose out of the dusk。 It hid this
extraordinary man from her； and bore him away to the fountain。
Mr。 George Emerson happened to be a few paces away； looking at
her across the spot where the man had been。 How very odd！ Across
something。 Even as she caught sight of him he grew dim； the
palace itself grew dim； swayed above her； fell on to her softly；
slowly； noiselessly； and the sky fell with it。
She thought： 〃Oh； what have I done？〃
〃Oh； what have I done？〃 she murmured； and opened her eyes。
George Emerson still looked at her； but not across anything。 She
had complained of dullness； and lo！ one man was stabbed； and
another held her in his arms。
They were sitting on some steps in the Uffizi Arcade。 He must
have carried her。 He rose when she spoke； and began to dust his
knees。 She repeated：
〃Oh； what have I done？〃
〃You fainted。〃
〃II am very sorry。〃
〃How are you now？〃
〃Perfectly wellabsolutely well。〃 And she began to nod and
smile。
〃Then let us come home。 There's no point in our stopping。〃
He held out his hand to pull her up。 She pretended not to see it。
The cries from the fountainthey had never ceasedrang emptily。
The whole world seemed pale and void of its original meaning。
〃How very kind you have been！ I might have hurt myself falling。
But now I am well。 I can go alone； thank you。〃
His hand was still extended。
〃Oh； my photographs！〃 she exclaimed suddenly。
〃What photographs？〃
〃I bought some photographs at Alinari's。 I must have dropped them
out there in the square。〃 She looked at him cautiously。 〃Would
you add to your kindness by fetching them？〃
He added to his kindness。 As soon as he had turned his back； Lucy
arose with the running of a maniac and stole down the arcade
towards the Arno。
〃Miss Honeychurch！〃
She stopped with her hand on her heart。
〃You sit still； you aren't fit to go home alone。〃
〃Yes； I am； thank you so very much。〃
〃No； you aren't。 You'd go openly if you were。〃
〃But I had rather〃
〃Then I don't fetch your photographs。〃
〃I had rather be alone。〃
He said imperiously： 〃The man is deadthe man is probably dead；
sit down till you are rested。〃 She was bewildered； and obeyed
him。 〃And don't move till I come back。〃
In the distance she saw creatures with black hoods； such as
appear in dreams。 The palace tower had lost the reflection of the
declining day； and joined itself to earth。 How should she talk to
Mr。 Emerson when he returned from the shadowy square？ Again the
thought occurred to her； 〃Oh； what have I done？〃the thought
that she； as well as the dying man； had crossed some spiritual
boundary。
He returned； and she talked of the murder。 Oddly enough； it was
an easy topic。 She spoke of the Italian character； she became
almost garrulous over the incident that had made her faint five
minutes before。 Being strong physically； she soon overcame the
horror of blood。 She rose without his assistance； and though
wings seemed to flutter inside her； she walked firmly enough
towards the Arno。 There a cabman signalled to them； they refused
him。
〃And the murderer tried to kiss him； you sayhow very odd
Italians are！and gave himself up to the police！ Mr。 Beebe was
saying that Italians know everything； but I think they are rather
childish。 When my cousin and I were at the Pitti yesterdayWhat
was that？〃
He had thrown something into the stream。
〃What did you throw in？〃
〃Things I didn't want；〃 he said crossly。
〃Mr。 Emerson！〃
〃Well？〃
〃Where are the photographs？〃
He was silent。
〃I believe it was my photographs that you threw away。〃
〃I didn't know what to do with them；〃 he cried。 and his voice was
that of an anxious boy。 Her heart warmed towards him for the
first time。 〃They were covered with blood。 There！ I'm glad I've
told you； and all the time we were making conversation I was
wondering what to do with them。〃 He pointed down…s