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st by ourselves； would be to me most delightful。 I should； indeed； like to go； but I can't get leave of absence for longer than a week； and I'm afraid that would not suit youmust I then give it up entirely？ I feel as if I COULD NOT； I never had such a chance of enjoyment before； I do want to see you and talk to you； and be with you。 When do you wish to go？ Could I meet you at Leeds？ To take a gig from Haworth to B。； would be to me a very serious increase of expense； and I happen to be very low in cash。 Oh！ rich people seem to have many pleasures at their command which we are debarred from！ However； no repining。
〃Say when you go； and I shall be able in my answer to say decidedly whether I can accompany you or not。 I mustI willI'm set upon itI'll be obstinate and bear down all opposition。
〃P。S。Since writing the above； I find that aunt and papa have determined to go to Liverpool for a fortnight； and take us all with them。 It is stipulated； however； that I should give up the Cleathorpe scheme。 I yield reluctantly。〃
I fancy that； about this time； Mr。 Bronte found it necessary； either from failing health or the increased populousness of the parish； to engage the assistance of a curate。 At least； it is in a letter written this summer that I find mention of the first of a succession of curates； who henceforward revolved round Haworth Parsonage； and made an impression on the mind of one of its inmates which she has conveyed pretty distinctly to the world。 The Haworth curate brought his clerical friends and neighbours about the place； and for a time the incursions of these； near the parsonage tea…time； formed occurrences by which the quietness of the life there was varied； sometimes pleasantly； sometimes disagreeably。 The little adventure recorded at the end of the following letter is uncommon in the lot of most women； and is a testimony in this case to the unusual power of attractionthough so plain in featurewhich Charlotte possessed； when she let herself go in the happiness and freedom of home。
〃August 4th； 1839。
〃The Liverpool journey is yet a matter of talk； a sort of castle in the air； but； between you and me； I fancy it is very doubtful whether it will ever assume a more solid shape。 Auntlike many other elderly peoplelikes to talk of such things； but when it comes to putting them into actual execution； she rather falls off。 Such being the case； I think you and I had better adhere to our first plan of going somewhere together independently of other people。 I have got leave to accompany you for a weekat the utmost a fortnightbut no more。 Where do you wish to go？ Burlington； I should think； from what M。 says； would be as eligible a place as any。 When do you set off？ Arrange all these things according to your convenience； I shall start no objections。 The idea of seeing the seaof being near itwatching its changes by sunrise； sunset； moonlight； and noon…dayin calm； perhaps in stormfills and satisfies my mind。 I shall be discontented at nothing。 And then I am not to be with a set of people with whom I have nothing in commonwho would be nuisances and bores： but with you； whom I like and know； and who knows me。
〃I have an odd circumstance to relate to you： prepare for a hearty laugh！ The other day； Mr。 …； a vicar； came to spend the day with us； bringing with him his own curate。 The latter gentleman； by name Mr。 B。； is a young Irish clergyman； fresh from Dublin University。 It was the first time we had any of us seen him； but； however； after the manner of his countrymen； he soon made himself at home。 His character quickly appeared in his conversation； witty； lively； ardent； clever too； but deficient in the dignity and discretion of an Englishman。 At home； you know； I talk with ease； and am never shynever weighed down and oppressed by that miserable MAUVAISE HONTE which torments and constrains me elsewhere。 So I conversed with this Irishman； and laughed at his jests； and； though I saw faults in his character； excused them because of the amusement his originality afforded。 I cooled a little； indeed； and drew in towards the latter part of the evening； because he began to season his conversation with something of Hibernian flattery； which I did not quite relish。 However； they went away； and no more was thought about them。 A few days after； I got a letter； the direction of which puzzled me； it being in a hand I was not accustomed to see。 Evidently； it was neither from you nor Mary； my only correspondents。 Having opened and read it； it proved to be a declaration of attachment and proposal of matrimony； expressed in the ardent language of the sapient young Irishman！ I hope you are laughing heartily。 This is not like one of my adventures； is it？ It more nearly resembles Martha's。 I am certainly doomed to be an old maid。 Never mind。 I made up my mind to that fate ever since I was twelve years old。
〃Well！ thought I； I have heard of love at first sight； but this beats all！ I leave you to guess what my answer would be； convinced that you will not do me the injustice of guessing wrong。〃
〃On the 14th of August she still writes from Haworth：…
〃I have in vain packed my box； and prepared everything for our anticipated journey。 It so happens that I can get no conveyance this week or the next。 The only gig let out to hire in Haworth； is at Harrowgate； and likely to remain there； for aught I can hear。 Papa decidedly objects to my going by the coach； and walking to B。； though I am sure I could manage it。 Aunt exclaims against the weather； and the roads； and the four winds of heaven； so I am in a fix； and； what is worse； so are you。 On reading over； for the second or third time； your last letter （which； by the by； was written in such hieroglyphics that； at the first hasty perusal； I could hardly make out two consecutive words）； I find you intimate that if I leave this journey till Thursday I shall be too late。 I grieve that I should have so inconvenienced you； but I need not talk of either Friday or Saturday now； for I rather imagine there is small chance of my ever going at all。 The elders of the house have never cordially acquiesced in the measure； and now that impediments seem to start up at every step； opposition grows more open。 Papa； indeed； would willingly indulge me； but this very kindness of his makes me doubt whether I ought to draw upon it； so； though I could battle out aunt's discontent； I yield to papa's indulgence。 He does not say so； but I know he would rather I stayed at home； and aunt meant well too； I dare say； but I am provoked that she reserved the expression of her decided disapproval till all was settled between you and myself。 Reckon on me no more； leave me out in your calculations： perhaps I ought； in the beginning； to have had prudence sufficient to shut my eyes against such a prospect of pleasure； so as to deny myself the hope of it。 Be as angry as you please with me for disappointing you。 I did not intend it； and have only one thing more to sayif you do not go immediately to the sea； will you come to see us at Haworth？ This invitation is not mine only； but papa's and aunt's。〃
However； a little more patience； a little more delay； and she enjoyed the pleasure she had wished for so much。 She and her friend went to Easton for a fortnight in the latter part of September。 It was here she received her first impressions of the sea。
〃Oct。 24th。
〃Have you forgotten the sea by this time； E。？ Is it grown dim in your mind？ Or can you still see it； dark； blue； and green； and foam…white； and hear it roaring roughly when the wind is high； or rushing softly when it is calm？ 。 。 。 I am as well as need be； and very fat。 I think of Easton very often； and of worthy Mr。 H。； and his kind…hearted helpmate； and of our pleasant walks to H… Wood； and to Boynton； our merry evenings； our romps with little Hancheon； &c。； &c。 If we both live； this period of our lives will long be a theme for pleasant recollection。 Did you chance； in your letter to Mr。 H。； to mention my spectacles？ I am sadly inconvenienced by the want of them。 I can neither read； write； nor draw with comfort in their absence。 I hope Madame won't refuse to give them up 。 。 。 Excuse the brevity of this letter； for I have been drawing all day； and my eyes are so tired it is quite a labour to write。〃
But； as the vivid remembrance of this pleasure died away； an accident occurred to make the actual duties of life press somewhat heavily for a time。
〃December 21st； 1839
〃We are at present； and have been during the last month； rather busy； as； for that space of time； we have been without a servant； except a little girl to run errands。 Poor Tabby became so lame that she was at length obliged to leave us。 She is residing with her sister； in a little house of her own； which she bought with her savings a year or two since。 She is very comfortable； and wants nothing； as she is near； we see her very often。 In the meantime； Emily and I are sufficiently busy； as you may suppose： I manage the ironing； and keep the rooms clean； Emily does the baking； and attends to the kitchen。 We are such odd animals； that we prefer this mode of contrivance to having a new face amongst us。 Besides； we do not despair of Tabb