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But Clemens was never a man to give up。 I relinquished gratis all right
and title I had in the play； and he paid its entire expenses for a week
of one…night stands in the country。 It never came to New York； and yet I
think now that if it had come； it would have succeeded。 So hard does the
faith of the unsuccessful dramatist in his work die。
VII。
There is an incident of this time so characteristic of both men that I
will yield to the temptation of giving it here。 After I had gone to
Hartford in response to Clemens's telegram； Matthew Arnold arrived in
Boston； and one of my family called on his； to explain why I was not at
home to receive his introduction： I had gone to see Mark Twain。 〃Oh； but
he doesn't like that sort of thing； does he？〃 〃He likes Mr。 Clemens very
much；〃 my representative answered； 〃and he thinks him one of the greatest
men he ever knew。〃 I was still Clemens's guest at Hartford when Arnold
came there to lecture； and one night we went to meet him at a reception。
While his hand laxly held mine in greeting； I saw his eyes fixed
intensely on the other side of the room。 〃Who…who in the world is that？〃
I looked and said； 〃Oh； that is Mark Twain。〃 I do not remember just how
their instant encounter was contrived by Arnold's wish； but I have the
impression that they were not parted for long during the evening； and the
next night Arnold； as if still under the glamour of that potent presence；
was at Clemens's house。 I cannot say how they got on； or what they made
of each other； if Clemens ever spoke of Arnold； I do not recall what he
said； but Arnold had shown a sense of him from which the incredulous
sniff of the polite world； now so universally exploded； had already
perished。 It might well have done so with his first dramatic vision of
that prodigious head。 Clemens was then hard upon fifty； and he had kept；
as he did to the end； the slender figure of his youth； but the ashes of
the burnt…out years were beginning to gray the fires of that splendid
shock of red hair which he held to the height of a stature apparently
greater than it was； and tilted from side to side in his undulating walk。
He glimmered at you from the narrow slits of fine blue…greenish eyes；
under branching brows； which with age grew more and more like a sort of
plumage； and he was apt to smile into your face with a subtle but amiable
perception； and yet with a sort of remote absence； you were all there for
him； but he was not all there for you。
VIII。
I shall； not try to give chronological order to my recollections of him；
but since I am just now with him in Hartford I will speak of him in
association with the place。 Once when I came on from Cambridge he
followed me to my room to see that the water was not frozen in my bath；
or something of the kind； for it was very cold weather； and then
hospitably lingered。 Not to lose time in banalities I began at once from
the thread of thought in my mind。 〃I wonder why we hate the past so；〃
and he responded from the depths of his own consciousness； 〃It's so
damned humiliating；〃 which is what any man would say of his past if he
were honest； but honest men are few when it comes to themselves。 Clemens
was one of the few； and the first of them among all the people I have
known。 I have known； I suppose； men as truthful； but not so promptly； so
absolutely； so positively； so almost aggressively truthful。 He could
lie； of course； and did to save others from grief or harm； he was； not
stupidly truthful； but his first impulse was to say out the thing and
everything that was in him。 To those who can understand it will not be
contradictory of his sense of humiliation from the past； that he was not
ashamed for anything he ever did to the point of wishing to hide it。 He
could be； and he was； bitterly sorry for his errors； which he had enough
of in his life； but he was not ashamed in that mean way。 What he had
done he owned to； good； bad； or indifferent； and if it was bad he was
rather amused than troubled as to the effect in your mind。 He would not
obtrude the fact upon you； but if it were in the way of personal history
he would not dream of withholding it； far less of hiding it。
He was the readiest of men to allow an error if he were found in it。 In
one of our walks about Hartford； when he was in the first fine flush of
his agnosticism； be declared that Christianity had done nothing to
improve morals and conditions； and that the world under the highest pagan
civilization was as well off as it was under the highest Christian
influences。 I happened to be fresh from the reading of Charles Loring
Brace's 'Gesta Christi'； or； 'History of Humane Progress'； and I could
offer him abundant proofs that he was wrong。 He did not like that
evidently； but he instantly gave way； saying be had not known those
things。 Later be was more tolerant in his denials of Christianity； but
just then he was feeling his freedom from it； and rejoicing in having
broken what he felt to have been the shackles of belief worn so long。
He greatly admired Robert Ingersoll； whom he called an angelic orator；
and regarded as an evangel of a new gospelthe gospel of free thought。；
He took the warmest interest in the newspaper controversy raging at the
time as to the existence of a hell； when the noes carried the day； I
suppose that no enemy of perdition was more pleased。 He still loved his
old friend and pastor； Mr。 Twichell； but he no longer went to hear him
preach his sage and beautiful sermons； and was； I think； thereby the
greater loser。 Long before that I had asked him if he went regularly to
church； and he groaned out： 〃Oh yes； I go。 It 'most kills me； but I go；〃
and I did not need his telling me to understand that he went because his
wife wished it。 He did tell me； after they both ceased to go； that it
had finally come to her saying； 〃Well； if you are to be lost； I want to
be lost with you。〃 He could accept that willingness for supreme
sacrifice and exult in it because of the supreme truth as he saw it。
After they had both ceased to be formal Christians； she was still grieved
by his denial of immortality； so grieved that he resolved upon one of
those heroic lies； which for love's sake he held above even the truth；
and he went to her； saying that he had been thinking the whole matter
over； and now he was convinced that the soul did live after death。 It
was too late。 Her keen vision pierced through his ruse； as it did when
he brought the doctor who had diagnosticated her case as organic disease
of the heart； and； after making him go over the facts of it again with
her； made him declare it merely functional。
To make an end of these records as to Clemens's beliefs； so far as I knew
them； I should say that he never went back to anything like faith in the
Christian theology； or in the notion of life after death； or in a
conscious divinity。 It is best to be honest in this matter； he would
have hated anything else； and I do not believe that the truth in it can
hurt any one。 At one period he argued that there must have been a cause；
a conscious source of things； that the universe could not have come by
chance。 I have heard also that in his last hours or moments he said； or
his dearest ones hoped he had said； something about meeting again。 But
the expression； of which they could not be certain； was of the vaguest；
and it was perhaps addressed to their tenderness out of his tenderness。
All his expressions to me were of a courageous； renunciation of any hope
of living again； or elsewhere seeing those he had lost。 He suffered
terribly in their loss； and he was not fool enough to try ignoring his
grief。 He knew that for this there were but two medicines； that it would
wear itself out with the years； and that meanwhile there was nothing for
it but those respites in which the mourner forgets himself in slumber。
I remember that in a black hour of my own when I was called down to see
him； as he thought from sleep； he said with an infinite； an exquisite
compassion； 〃Oh； did I wake you； did I wake； you？〃 Nothing more； but the
look； the voice； were everything； and while I live they cannot pass from
my sense。
IX。
He was the most caressing of men in his pity； but he had the fine
instinct； which would have pleased Lowell； of never putting his hands on
youfine； delicate hands； with taper fingers； and pink nails； like a
girl's； and sensitively quivering in moments of emotion； he did not paw
you with them to show his affection； as so many of us Americans are apt
to do。 Among the half…dozen； or half…hundred； personalities that each of
us becomes； I should say that Clemens's central and final personality was
something exquisite。 His casual acquaintance might know him； perhaps；
from his fierce intensity； his wild pleasure in shocking people with his
ribaldries and profanities； or from the mere need of loosing his
rebellious spirit in that way； as anything but exquisite； and yet that
was what in the last analysis he was。 They might come away loathing or
hating him； but one could not know him well without realizing him the
most serious； the most humane； the most conscientious of men。 He was
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