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affairs are; when wonder; having no fresh food to support it; dies
away of itself。
Meanwhile; Rose was rapidly recovering。 She had left her
room; was able to go out; and mixing once more with the family;
carried joy into the hearts of all。
But; although this happy change had a visible effect on the little
circle; and although cheerful voices and merry laughter were once
more heard in the cottage; there was at times; an unwonted
restraint upon some there; even upon Rose herself; which Oliver
could not fail to remark。 Mr。 Maylie and her son were often
closeted together for a long time; and more than once Rose
appeared with traces of tears upon her face。 After Mr。 Losberne
had fixed a day for his departure to Chertsey; these symptoms
increased; and it became evident that something was in progress
which affected the peace of the young lady; and of somebody else
besides。
At length; one morning; when Rose was alone in the breakfast…
parlour; Harry Maylie entered; and; with some hesitation; begged
permission to speak with her for a few moments。
“A few—a very few—will suffice; Rose;” said the young man;
drawing his chair towards her。 “What I shall have to say; has
already presented itself to your mind; the most cherished hopes of
my heart are not unknown to you; though from my lips you have
not yet heard them stated。”
Rose had been very pale from the moment of his entrance; but
that might have been the effect of her recent illness。 She merely
bowed; and bending over some plants that stood near; waited in
silence for him to proceed。 ought to have left here; before;” said
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Harry。
“You should; indeed;” replied Rose。 “Forgive me for saying so;
but I wish you had。”
“I was brought here; by the most dreadful and agonising of all
apprehensions;” said the young man: “the fear of losing the one
dear being on whom my every wish and hope are fixed。 You had
been dying; trembling between earth and heaven。 We know that
when the young; the beautiful; and good; are visited with sickness;
their pure spirits insensibly turn towards their bright home of
lasting rest; we know; Heaven help us; that the best and fairest of
our kind; too often fade in blooming。”
There were tears in the eyes of the gentle girl; as these words
were spoken; and when one fell upon the flower over which she
bent; and glistened brightly in its cup; making it more beautiful; it
seemed as though the out…pouring of her fresh young heart;
claimed kindred naturally; with the loveliest things in nature。
“A creature;” continued the young man passionately; “a
creature as fair and innocent of guile as one of God’s own angels;
fluttered between life and death。 Oh; who could hope; when the
distant world to which she was akin; half…opened to her view; that
she would return to the sorrow and calamity of this; Rose; Rose; to
know that you were passing away like some soft shadow; which a
light from above casts upon the earth; to have no hope that you
would be spared to those who linger here; hardly to know a reason
why you should be; to feel that you belonged to that bright sphere
whither so many of the fairest and the best have winged their early
flight; and yet to pray; amid all these consolations; that you might
be restored to those who loved you—these were distractions
almost too great to bear。 They were mine; by day and night; and
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with them; came such a rushing torrent of fears; and
apprehensions; and selfish regrets; lest you should die; and never
know how devotedly I loved you; as almost bore down sense and
reason in its course。 You recovered。 Day by day; and almost hour
by hour; some drop of health came back; and mingling with the
spent and feeble stream of life which circulated languidly within
you; swelled it again to a high and rushing tide。 I have watched
you change almost from death to life; with eyes that turned blind
with their eagerness and deep affection。 Do not tell me that you
wish I had lost this; for it has softened my heart to all mankind。”
“I did not mean that;” said Rose; weeping; “I only wish you had
left here; that you might have turned to high and noble pursuits
again; to pursuits well worthy of you。”
“There is no pursuit more worthy of me; more worthy of the
highest nature that exists; than the struggle to win such a heart as
yours;” said the young man; taking her hand。 “Rose; my own dear
Rose! For years—for years—I have loved you; hoping to win my
way to fame; and then come proudly home and tell you it had been
pursued only for you to share; thinking; in my day…dreams; how I
would remind you; in that happy moment; of the many silent
tokens I had given of a boy’s attachment; and claim your hand; as
in redemption of some old; mute contract that had been sealed
between us! That time has not arrived; but here; with no fame
won; and no young vision realised; I offer you the heart so long
your own; and stake my all upon the words with which you greet
the offer。”
“Your behaviour has ever been kind and noble;” said Rose;
mastering the emotions by which she was agitated。 “As you
believe that I am not insensible or ungrateful; so hear my answer。”
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“It is; that I may endeavour to deserve you; is it; dear Rose?”
“It is;” replied Rose; “that you must endeavour to forget me; not
as your old and dearly…attached companion; for that would wound
me deeply; but; as the object of your love。 Look into the world;
think how many hearts you would be proud to gain are there。
Confide some other passion to me; if you will; I will be the truest;
warmest; and most faithful friend you have。”
There was a pause; during which; Rose; who had covered her
face with one hand; gave free vent to her tears。 Harry still retained
the other。
“And your reasons; Rose;” he said; at length; in a low voice;
“your reasons for this decision?”
“You have a right to know them;” rejoined Rose。 “You can say
nothing to alter my decision。 It is a duty that I must perform。 I owe
it; alike to others; and to myself。”
“To yourself?”
“Yes; Harry。 I owe it to myself; that I; a friendless; portion less
girl; with a blight upon my name; should not give your friends
reason to suspect that I had sordidly yielded to your first passion;
and fastened myself; a clog; on all your hopes and projects。 I owe it
to you and yours; to prevent you from opposing; in the warmth of
your generous nature; this great obstacle to your progress in the
world。”
“If your inclinations chime with your sense of duty—” Harry
began。
“They do not;” replied Rose; colouring deeply。
“Then you return my love?” said Harry。 “Say but that; dear
Rose; say but that; and soften the bitterness of this hard
disappointment!”
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“If I could have done so; without doing heavy wrong to him I
loved;” rejoined Rose; “I could have—”
“Have received this declaration very indifferently?” said Harry。
“Do not conceal that from me; at least; Rose。”
“I could;” said Rose。 “Stay;” she added; disengaging her hand;
“why should we prolong this painful interview? Most painful to
me; and yet productive of lasting happiness; notwithstanding; for
it will be happiness to know that I once held the high place in your
regard which I now occupy; and every triumph you achieve in life
will animate me with new fortitude and firmness。 Farewell; Harry!
As we have met today; we meet no more; but in other relations
than those in which this conversation would have placed us; we
may be long and happily entwined; and may every blessing that
the prayers of a true and earnest heart can call down from the
source of all truth and sincerity; cheer and prosper you!”
“Another word; Rose;” said Harry。 “Your reason in your own
lips; let me hear it?”
“The prospect before you;” answered Rose firmly; “is a brilliant
one。 All the honours to which great talents and powerful
connections can help men in public life; are in store for you。 But
those connections are proud; and I will neither mingle with such
as may hold in scorn the mother who gave me life; nor bring
disgrace or failure on the son of her who had so well supplied that
mother’s place。 In a word;” said the young lady; turning away; as
her temporary firmness forsook her; “there is a stain upon my
name; which the world visits on innocent heads。 I will carry it into
no blood but my own; and the reproach shall rest alone on me。”
“One word more; Rose。 Dearest Rose! one more!” cried Harry;
throwing himself before her。 “If I had been less—less fortunate;
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the world would call it—if some obscure and peaceful life had
been my destiny—if I had been poor; sick; helpless—would you
have turned from me then? Or has my probable advancement to
riches an