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r himself victual； for the world an additional horse's power in the grand corn…mill or hemp…mill of Economic Society。 For me too had such a leading…string been provided； only that it proved a neck…halter； and had nigh throttled me； till I broke it off。 Then； in the words of Ancient Pistol； did the world generally become mine oyster； which I； by strength or cunning； was to open； as I would and could。 Almost had I deceased （_fast war ich umgekommen_）； so obstinately did it continue shut。〃
We see here； significantly foreshadowed； the spirit of much that was to befall our Autobiographer； the historical embodiment of which； as it painfully takes shape in his Life； lies scattered； in dim disastrous details； through this Bag _Pisces_； and those that follow。 A young man of high talent； and high though still temper； like a young mettled colt； 〃breaks off his neck…halter；〃 and bounds forth； from his peculiar manger； into the wide world； which； alas； he finds all rigorously fenced in。 Richest clover…fields tempt his eye； but to him they are forbidden pasture： either pining in progressive starvation； he must stand； or； in mad exasperation； must rush to and fro； leaping against sheer stone…walls； which he cannot leap over； which only lacerate and lame him； till at last； after thousand attempts and endurances； he； as if by miracle； clears his way； not indeed into luxuriant and luxurious clover； yet into a certain bosky wilderness where existence is still possible； and Freedom； though waited on by Scarcity； is not without sweetness。 In a word； Teufelsdrockh having thrown up his legal Profession； finds himself without landmark of outward guidance； whereby his previous want of decided Belief； or inward guidance； is frightfully aggravated。 Necessity urges him on； Time will not stop； neither can he； a Son of Time； wild passions without solacement； wild faculties without employment； ever vex and agitate him。 He too must enact that stern Monodrama； _No Object and no Rest_； must front its successive destinies； work through to its catastrophe； and deduce therefrom what moral he can。
Yet let us be just to him； let us admit that his 〃neck…halter〃 sat nowise easy on him； that he was in some degree forced to break it off。 If we look at the young man's civic position； in this Nameless capital； as he emerges from its Nameless University； we can discern well that it was far from enviable。 His first Law…Examination he has come through triumphantly； and can even boast that the _Examen Rigorosum_ need not have frightened him： but though he is hereby 〃an _Auscultator_ of respectability；〃 what avails it？ There is next to no employment to be had。 Neither； for a youth without connections； is the process of Expectation very hopeful in itself； nor for one of his disposition much cheered from without。 〃 My fellow Auscultators；〃 he says； 〃were Auscultators： they dressed； and digested； and talked articulate words； other vitality showed they almost none。 Small speculation in those eyes； that they did glare withal！ Sense neither for the high nor for the deep； nor for aught human or divine； save only for the faintest scent of coming Preferment。〃 In which words； indicating a total estrangement on the part of Teufelsdrockh may there not also lurk traces of a bitterness as from wounded vanity？ Doubtless these prosaic Auscultators may have sniffed at him； with his strange ways； and tried to hate； and what was much more impossible； to despise him。 Friendly communion； in any case； there could not be： already has the young Teufelsdrockh left the other young geese； and swims apart； though as yet uncertain whether he himself is cygnet or gosling。
Perhaps； too； what little employment he had was performed ill； at best unpleasantly。 〃Great practical method and expertness〃 he may brag of； but is there not also great practical pride； though deep…hidden； only the deeper…seated？ So shy a man can never have been popular。 We figure to ourselves； how in those days he may have played strange freaks with his independence； and so forth： do not his own words betoken as much？ 〃Like a very young person； I imagined it was with Work alone； and not also with Folly and Sin； in myself and others； that I had been appointed to struggle。〃 Be this as it may； his progress from the passive Auscultatorship； towards any active Assessorship； is evidently of the slowest。 By degrees； those same established men； once partially inclined to patronize him； seem to withdraw their countenance； and give him up as 〃a man of genius〃 against which procedure he； in these Papers； loudly protests。 〃As if；〃 says he； 〃the higher did not presuppose the lower； as if he who can fly into heaven； could not also walk post if he resolved on it！ But the world is an old woman； and mistakes any gilt farthing for a gold coin； whereby being often cheated； she will thenceforth trust nothing but the common copper。〃
How our winged sky…messenger； unaccepted as a terrestrial runner； contrived； in the mean while； to keep himself from flying skyward without return； is not too clear from these Documents。 Good old Gretchen seems to have vanished from the scene； perhaps from the Earth； other Horn of Plenty； or even of Parsimony； nowhere flows for him； so that 〃the prompt nature of Hunger being well known；〃 we are not without our anxiety。 From private Tuition； in never so many languages and sciences； the aid derivable is small； neither； to use his own words； 〃does the young Adventurer hitherto suspect in himself any literary gift； but at best earns bread…and…water wages； by his wide faculty of Translation。 Nevertheless；〃 continues he； 〃that I subsisted is clear； for you find me even now alive。〃 Which fact； however； except upon the principle of our true…hearted； kind old Proverb； that 〃there is always life for a living one；〃 we must profess ourselves unable to explain。
Certain Landlords' Bills； and other economic Documents； bearing the mark of Settlement； indicate that he was not without money； but； like an independent Hearth…holder； if not House…holder； paid his way。 Here also occur； among many others； two little mutilated Notes； which perhaps throw light on his condition。 The first has now no date； or writer's name； but a huge Blot； and runs to this effect： 〃The （_Inkblot_）； tied down by previous promise； cannot； except by best wishes； forward the Herr Teufelsdrockh's views on the Assessorship in question； and sees himself under the cruel necessity of forbearing； for the present； what were otherwise his duty and joy； to assist in opening the career for a man of genius； on whom far higher triumphs are yet waiting。〃 The other is on gilt paper； and interests us like a sort of epistolary mummy now dead； yet which once lived and beneficently worked。 We give it in the original： 〃_Herr Teufelsdrockh wird von der Frau Grafinn； auf Donnerstag； zum AESTHETISCHEN THEE schonstens eingeladen_。〃
Thus； in answer to a cry for solid pudding； whereof there is the most urgent need； comes； epigrammatically enough； the invitation to a wash of quite fluid _AEsthetic Tea_！ How Teufelsdrockh； now at actual hand…grips with Destiny herself； may have comported himself among these Musical and Literary dilettanti of both sexes； like a hungry lion invited to a feast of chickenweed； we can only conjecture。 Perhaps in expressive silence； and abstinence： otherwise if the lion； in such case； is to feast at all； it cannot be on the chickenweed； but only on the chickens。 For the rest； as this Frau Grafinn dates from the _Zahdarm House_； she can be no other than the Countess and mistress of the same； whose intellectual tendencies； and good…will to Teufelsdrockh； whether on the footing of Herr Towgood； or on his own footing； are hereby manifest。 That some sort of relation； indeed； continued； for a time； to connect our Autobiographer； though perhaps feebly enough； with this noble House； we have elsewhere express evidence。 Doubtless； if he expected patronage； it was in vain； enough for him if he here obtained occasional glimpses of the great world； from which we at one time fancied him to have been always excluded。 〃The Zahdarms；〃 says he； 〃lived in the soft； sumptuous garniture of Aristocracy； whereto Literature and Art； attracted and attached from without； were to serve as the handsomest fringing。 It was to the _Gnadigen Frau_ （her Ladyship） that this latter improvement was due： assiduously she gathered； dexterously she fitted on； what fringing was to be had； lace or cobweb； as the place yielded。〃 Was Teufelsdrockh also a fringe； of lace or cobweb； or promising to be such？ 〃With his _Excellenz_ （the Count）；〃 continues he； 〃I have more than once had the honor to converse； chiefly on general affairs； and the aspect of the world； which he； though now past middle life； viewed in no unfavorable light； finding indeed； except the Outrooting of Journalism （_die auszurottende Journalistik_）； little to desiderate therein。 On some points； as his _Excellenz_ was not uncholeric； I found it more pleasant to keep silence。 Besides； his occupation being that of Owning Land； there might be faculties enough； which； as superfluous for such use； were little developed in him。〃
That to Teufelsdrockh the aspect of the world was nowise so faultless； an