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317。 Now as Satan laboured by reproaches and slanders； to make me vile among my countrymen； that； if possible； my preaching might be made of none effect； so there was added hereto； a long and tedious imprisonment； that thereby I might be frightened from my service for Christ； and the world terrified； and made afraid to hear me preach； of which I shall in the next place give you a brief account。
A BRIEF ACCOUNT OF THE AUTHOR'S IMPRISONMENT
318。 Having made profession of the glorious gospel of Christ a long time； and preached the same about five years； I was apprehended at a meeting of good people in the country （among whom； had they let me alone； I should have preached that day； but they took me away from amongst them）； and had me before a justice； who； after I had offered security for my appearing at the next sessions； yet committed me； because my sureties would not consent to be bound that I should preach no more to the people。
319。 At the sessions after I was indicted for an upholder and maintainer of unlawful assemblies and conventicles； and for not conforming to the national worship of the church of ENGLAND； and after some conference there with the justices； they taking my plain dealing with them for a confession； as they termed it； OF THE INDICTMENT； DID SENTENCE ME TO A PERPETUAL BANISHMENT； BECAUSE I REFUSED TO CONFORM。 So being again delivered up to the jailer's hands； I was had home to prison； and there have lain now complete twelve years； waiting to see what God would suffer these men to do with me。
320。 In which condition I have continued with much content； through grace； but have met with many turnings and goings upon my heart； both from the Lord； Satan； and my own corruptions； by all which （glory be to Jesus Christ） I have also received among many things； much conviction； instruction； and understanding； of which at large I shall not here discourse； only give you a hint or two； a word that may stir up the godly to bless God； and to pray for me； and also to take encouragement； should the case be their own … NOT TO FEAR WHAT MAN CAN DO UNTO THEM。
321。 I never had in all my life so great an inlet into the word of God as now： those scriptures that I saw nothing in before； are made in this place and state to shine upon me； Jesus Christ also was never more real and apparent than now； here I have seen and felt Him indeed： Oh！ that word； WE HAVE NOT PREACHED UNTO YOU CUNNINGLY DEVISED FABLES； 2 Pet。 i。 16； and that； GOD RAISED CHRIST FROM THE DEAD； AND GAVE HIM GLORY； THAT OUR FAITH AND HOPE MIGHT BE IN GOD 1 Pet。 i。 21； were blessed words unto me in this my imprisoned condition。
322。 These three or four scriptures also have been great refreshments in this condition to me： John xiv。 1…4； John xvi。 33； Col。 iii。 3； 4； Heb。 xii。 22…24。 So that sometimes when I have been in the savour of them； I have been able to laugh at destruction； AND TO FEAR NEITHER THE HORSE NOR HIS RIDER。 I have had sweet sights of the forgiveness of my sins in this place； and of my being with Jesus in another world： OH！ THE MOUNT SION； THE HEAVENLY JERUSALEM； THE INNUMERABLE COMPANY OF ANGELS； AND GOD THE JUDGE OF ALL； AND THE SPIRITS OF JUST MEN MADE PERFECT； AND JESUS； have been sweet unto me in this place： I have seen that here； that I am persuaded I shall never； while in this world； be able to express： I have seen a truth in this scripture； WHOM HAVING NOT SEEN； YE LOVE； IN WHOM； THOUGH NOW YOU SEE HIM NOT； YET BELIEVING； YE REJOICE WITH JOY UNSPEAKABLE； AND FULL OF GLORY。 1 Pet。 i。 8。
323。 I never knew what it was for God to stand by me at all turns； and at every offer of Satan to afflict me； etc。； as I have found Him since I came in hither： for look how fears have presented themselves； so have supports and encouragements； yea； when I have started； even as it were； at nothing else but my shadow； yet God； as being very tender of me； hath not suffered me to be molested； but would with one scripture or another； strengthen me against all； insomuch that I have often said； WERE IT LAWFUL； I COULD PRAY FOR GREATER TROUBLE； FOR THE GREATER COMFORT'S SAKE。 Eccl。 vii。 14； 2 Cor。 i。 5。
324。 Before I came to prison； I saw what was coming； and had especially two considerations warm upon my heart； the first was； how to be able to encounter death； should that be here my portion。 For the first of these； that scripture； Col。 i。 11； was great information to me； namely； to pray to God TO BE STRENGTHENED WITH ALL MIGHT； ACCORDING TO HIS GLORIOUS POWER； UNTO ALL PATIENCE AND LONG…SUFFERING WITH JOYFULNESS。 I could seldom go to prayer before I was imprisoned； but for not so little as a year together； this sentence； or sweet petition would； as it were； thrust itself into my mind； and persuade me； that if ever I would go through long… suffering； I must have all patience； especially if I would endure it joyfully。
325。 As to the second consideration； that saying （2 Cor。 i。 9） was of great use to me； BUT WE HAD THE SENTENCE OF DEATH IN OURSELVES； THAT WE SHOULD NOT TRUST IN OURSELVES； BUT IN GOD； WHICH RAISETH THE DEAD。 By this scripture I was made to see； That if ever I would suffer rightly； I must first pass a sentence of death upon every thing that can properly be called a thing of this life； even to reckon myself； my wife； my children； my health； my enjoyments； and all as dead to me； and myself as dead to them。
326。 The second was to live upon God that is invisible； as Paul said in another place； the way not to faint is； TO LOOK NOT ON THE THINGS THAT ARE SEEN； BUT AT THE THINGS THAT ARE NOT SEEN； FOR THE THINGS THAT ARE SEEN ARE TEMPORAL； BUT THE THINGS THAT ARE NOT SEEN ARE ETERNAL。 And thus I reasoned with myself； if I provide only for a prison； then the whip comes at unawares； and so doth also the pillory： Again； if I only provide for these； then I am not fit for banishment。 Further； if I conclude that banishment is the worst； then if death comes； I am surprised： so that I see； the best way to go through sufferings； is to trust in God through Christ； as touching the world to come； and as touching this world； TO COUNT THE GRAVE MY HOUSE； TO MAKE MY BED IN DARKNESS； TO SAY TO CORRUPTION； THOU ART MY FATHER； AND TO THE WORM； THOU ART MY MOTHER AND SISTER： that is； to familiarize these things to me。
327。 But notwithstanding these helps； I found myself a man and compassed with infirmities； the parting with my wife and poor children； hath often been to me in this place； as the pulling the flesh from the bones； and that not only because I am somewhat too fond of these great mercies； but also because I should have often brought to my mind the many hardships； miseries； and wants that my poor family was like to meet with； should I be taken from them； especially my poor blind child； who lay nearer my heart than all besides： Oh！ the thoughts of the hardship I thought my poor blind one might go under； would break my heart to pieces。
328。 Poor child！ thought I； what sorrow art thou like to have for thy portion in this world！ Thou must be beaten； must beg； suffer hunger； cold； nakedness； and a thousand calamities； though I cannot now endure the wind should blow upon thee。 But yet recalling myself； thought I； I must venture you all with God； though it goeth to the quick to leave you： Oh！ I saw in this condition I was as a man who was pulling down his house upon the head of his wife and children； yet； thought I； I must do it； I must do it： and now I thought on those TWO MILCH KINE THAT WERE TO CARRY THE ARK OF GOD INTO ANOTHER COUNTRY； AND TO LEAVE THEIR CALVES BEHIND THEM。 1 Sam。 vi。 10…12。
329。 But that which helped me in this temptation； was divers considerations； of which； three in special here I will name； the first was the consideration of these two scriptures； LEAVE THY FATHERLESS CHILDREN； I WILL PRESERVE THEM ALIVE； AND LET THY WIDOWS TRUST IN ME： and again； THE LORD SAID； VERILY IT SHALL BE WELL WITH THY REMNANT； VERILY； I WILL CAUSE THE ENEMY TO ENTREAT THEE WELL IN THE TIME OF EVIL； AND IN TIME OF AFFLICTION。 Jer。 xlix。 11； xv。 11。
330。 I had also this consideration； that if I should not venture all for God； I engaged God to take care of my concernments： but if I forsook Him and His ways； for fear of any trouble that should come to me or mine； then I should not only falsify my profession； but should count also that my concernments were not so sure； if left at God's feet； whilst I stood to and for His name； as they would be if they were under my own care； though with the denial of the way of God。 This was a smarting consideration； and as spurs unto my flesh。 That scripture also greatly helped it to fasten the more upon me； where Christ prays against Judas； that God would disappoint him in his selfish thoughts； which moved him to sell his Master。 Pray read it soberly： Psalm cix。 6…8； etc。
331。 I had also another consideration； and that was； the dread of the torments of hell； which I was sure they must partake of that for fear of the cross； do shrink from their profession of Christ； His words and laws before the sons of men： I thought also of the glory that