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The next day Charles Osmond； sitting at work in his study； and feeling more depressed and hopeless than he would have cared to own even to himself； was roused by the arrival of a little three…cornered note。 It was as follow：
〃Dear Mr。 Osmond； You made me feel very angry yesterday； and sad； too； for of course it was a case of 'Et tu； Brute。' But last night I came to the unpleasant conclusion that you were quite right； and that I was quite wrong。 To prove to you that I am no longer angry； I am going to ask you a great favor。 Will you teach me Greek？ Your parable of the heathen Chinee has set me thinking。 Yours very sincerely； Erica Raeburn〃
Charles Osmond felt the tears come to his eyes。 The straightforward simplicity of the letter； the candid avowal of having been 〃quite wrong；〃 an avowal not easy for one of Erica's character to make； touched him inexpressibly。 Taking a Greek grammar from his book shelves； he set off at once for Guilford Terrace。
He found Erica looking very white and fragile； and with lines of suffering about her mouth； but； though physically weary； her mind seemed as vigorous as ever。 She received him with her usual frankness； and with more animation in her look than he had seen for some weeks。
〃I did think you perfectly horrid yesterday！〃 she exclaimed。 〃And was miserable； besides； at the prospect of losing one of my heroes。 You can be very severe。〃
〃The infliction of pain is only justified when the inflictor is certain； or as nearly certain as he can be； that the pain will be productive of good；〃 said Charles Osmond。
〃I suppose that is the way you account for the origin of evil；〃 said Erica； thoughtfully。
〃Yes；〃 replied Charles Osmond； pleased that she should have thought of the subject； 〃that to me seems the only possible explanation； otherwise God would be either not perfectly good or not omnipotent。 His all…wisdom enables Him to overrule that pain which He has willed to be the necessary outcome of infractions of His order。 Pain； you see； is made into a means of helping us to find out where that order has been broken； and so teaching us to obey it in the long run。〃
〃But if there is an all…powerful God； wouldn't it have been much better if He had made it impossible for us to go wrong？〃
〃It would have saved much trouble； undoubtedly； but do you think that which costs us least trouble is generally the most worth having？ I know a noble fellow who has fought his way upward through sins and temptations you would like him； by the way； for he was once an atheist。 He is； by virtue of all he has passed through； all he has overcome； one of the fines men I have ever known。〃
〃That is the friend； I suppose； whom your son mentioned to me。 But I don't see your argument； for if there was an all…powerful God； He could have caused the man you speak of to be as noble and good without passing through pain and temptation。〃
〃But God does not work arbitrarily； but by laws of progression。 Nor does His omnipotence include the working of contradictions。 He cannot both cause a thing to be and not to be at the same time。 If it is a law that that which has grown by struggle and effort shall be most noble； God will not arbitrarily reverse that law or truth because the creation of sinless beings would involve less trouble。〃
〃It all seems to me so unreal！〃 exclaimed Erica。 〃It seems like talking of thin air！〃
〃I expect it does；〃 said Charles Osmond； trying to realize to himself her position。
There was a silence。
〃How did this man of whom you speak come to desert our side？〃 asked Erica。 〃I suppose； as you say he was one of the finest men you ever knew； he must； at least； have had a great intellect。 How did he begin to think all these unlikely； unreal things true？〃
〃Donovan began by seeing the grandeur of the character of Christ。 He followed his example for many years； calling himself all the time an atheist； at last he realized that in Christ we see the Father。〃
〃I am sorry we lost him if he is such a nice man；〃 was Erica's sole comment。 Then； turning her beautiful eyes on Charles Osmond； she said； 〃I hope my note did not convey to you more than I intended。 I asked you if you would teach me Greek； and I mean to try to study the character of Christ； but； quite to speak the truth； I don't really want to do it。 I only do it because I see I have not been fair。〃
〃You do it for the sake of being a truth…seeker； the best possible reason。〃
〃I thought you would think I was going to do it because I hoped to get something。 I thought one of your strong points was that people must come in a state of need and expecting to be satisfied。 I don't expect anything。 I am only doing it for the sake of honesty and thoroughness。 I don't expect any good at all。〃
〃Is it likely that you can expect when you know so little what is there？ What can you bring better than an hones mind to the search？ Erica； if I hadn't known that you were absolutely sincere； I should not have dared to give you the pain I gave you yesterday。 It was my trust in your perfect sincerity which brought you that strong accusation。 Even then it was a sore piece of work。〃
〃Did you mind it a little；〃 exclaimed Erica。 But directly she had spoken； she felt that the question was absurd； for she saw a look in Charles Osmond's eyes that made the word 〃little〃 a mockery。
〃What makes that man so loving？〃 she thought to herself。 〃He reminded me almost of father； yet I am no child of his。 I am opposed to all that he teaches。 I have spoken my mind out to him in a way which must sometimes have pained him。 Yet he cares for me so much that it pained him exceedingly to give me pain yesterday。〃
His character puzzled her。 The loving breath； the stern condemnation of whatever was not absolutely true； the disregard of what the world said； the hatred of shams； and most puzzling of all； the often apparent struggle with himself； the unceasing effort to conquer his chief fault。 Yet this noble； honest； intellectual man was laboring under a great delusion； a delusion which somehow gave him an extraordinary power of loving！ Ah； no！ It could not be his Christianity； though； which made him loving； for were not most Christians hard and bitter and narrow…minded？
〃I wish；〃 she said； abruptly； 〃you would tell me what makes you willing to be friends with us。 I know well enough that the 'Church Chronicle' has been punishing you for your defense of my father； and that there must be a thousand disagreeables to encounter in your own set just because you visit us。 Why do you come？〃
〃Because I care for you very much。〃
〃But you care； too； perhaps； for other people who will probably cut you for flying in the face of society and visiting social outcasts。〃
〃I don't think I can explain it to you yet； he replied。 〃You would only tell me； as you told me once before； that I was talking riddles to you。 When you have read your Greek Testament and really studied the life of Christ； I think you will understand。 In the meantime； St。 Paul； I think； answers your question better than I could； but you wouldn't understand even his words； I fancy。 There they are in the Greek〃 he opened a Testament and showed her a passage。 〃I believe you would think the English almost as great gibberish as this looks to you in its unknown characters。〃
〃Do you advise every one to learn Greek？〃
〃No； many have neither time nor ability； and those who are not apt at languages would spend their time more usefully over good translations； I think。 But you have time and brains； so I am very glad to teach you。〃
〃I am afraid I would much rather it were for any other purpose！〃 said Erica。 〃I am somehow weary of the very name of Christianity。 I have heard wrangling over the Bible till I am tired to death of it； and discussions about the Atonement and the Incarnation； and the Resurrection； till the very words are hateful to me。 I am afraid I shock you； but just put yourself in my place and imagine how you would feel。 It is not even as if I had to debate the various questions； I have merely to sit and listen to a never…ending dispute。〃
〃You sadden me； but it is quite natural that you should be weary of such debates。 I want you to realize； though； that in the stormy atmosphere of your father's lecture hall； in the din and strife of controversy； it is impossible that you should gain any true idea of Christ's real character。 Put aside all thought of the dogmas you have been wearied with； and study the life of the Man。〃
Then the lesson began。 It proved a treat to both teacher and pupil。 When Charles Osmond had left； Erica still worked on。
〃I should like； at any rate； to spell out his riddle；〃 she thought to herself； turning back to the passage he had shown her。 And letter by letter； and word by word； she made out 〃For the love of Christ〃
The verb baffled her； however； and she lay on the sofa； chafing at her helplessness till； at length； Tom happened to come in； and brought her the English Testament she needed。 Ah！ There it was！ 〃For the love of Christ constraineth us。〃
Was THAT what had made him come？ Why； that was the alleged reason for half the persecutions they met with！ Did the love of Christ constrain Charles Osmond to be th