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the way； and she was much better pleased to have him for a companion
than the grave Laura。
Philip； in the meantime； had walked all the way to Broadstone； timing
his return exactly； that he might meet Laura as she came out of the
school； and feel as if it had been by chance。 It was a gray； misty
November day； and the leaves of the elm…trees came floating round them；
yellow and damp。
'You have had a wet walk；' said Laura； as they met。
'It is not quite raining；' he answered； and they proceeded for some
minutes in silence； until he said；'It is time we should come to an
understanding。'
She looked at him in alarm； and his voice was immediately gentler；
indeed； at times it was almost inaudible from his strong emotion。 'I
believe that no affection has ever been stronger or truer than ours。'
'Has been！' repeated Laura； in a wondering； bewildered voice。
'And is； if you are satisfied to leave things as they are。'
'I must be； if you are。'
'I will not say I am satisfied with what must be； as I am situated； but
I felt it due to you to set the true state of the case before you。 Few
would venture their love as I do mine with you； bound in reality；
though not formally； with no promise sought or given； yet I am not more
assured that I stand here than I am that our love is for ever。'
'I am sure it is！' she repeated fervently。 '0 Philip； there never was
a time I did not love you： and since that day on Ashen Down； I have
loved you with my whole heart。 I am sometimes afraid it has left no
proper room for the rest； when I find how much more I think of your
going away than of poor Charles。'
'Yes；' he said； 'you have understood me as none but you would have
done； through coldness and reserve； apparently； even towards yourself；
and when to others I have seemed grave and severe beyond my years。 You
have never doubted； you have recognized the warmth within； you have
trusted your happiness to me； and it shall be safe in my keeping； for；
Laura； it is all mine。'
'There is only one thing；' said Laura； timidly； 'would it not be better
if mamma knew？'
'Laura； I have considered that； but remember you are not bound； I have
never asked you to bind yourself。 You might marry to…morrow； and I
should have no right to complain。 There is nothing to prevent you。'
She exclaimed； as if with pain。
'True；' he answered； 'you could not； and that certainty suffices me。 I
ask no more without your parents' consent； but it would be giving them
and you useless distress and perplexity to ask it now。 They would
object to my poverty； and we should gain nothing； for I would never be
so selfish as to wish to expose you to such a life as that of the wife
of a poor officer； and an open engagement could not add to our
confidence in each other。 We must be content to wait for my promotion。
By that time'he smiled gravely'our attachment will have lasted so
many years as to give it a claim to respect。'
'It is no new thing。'
'No newer than our lives； but remember； my Laura； that you are but
twenty。'
'You have made me feel much older；' sighed Laura； 'not that I would be
a thoughtless child again。 That cannot last long； not even for poor
little Amy'
'No one would wish to part with the deeper feelings of elder years to
regain the carelessness of childhood； even to be exempted from the
suffering that has brought them。'
'No； indeed。'
'For instance； these two years have scarcely been a time of great
happiness to you。'
'Sometimes；' whispered Laura； 'sometimes beyond all words； but often
dreary and oppressive。'
'Heaven knows how unwillingly I have rendered it so。 Rather than dim
the brightness of your life； I would have repressed my own sentiments
for ever。'
'But； then； where would have been my brightness？'
'I would； I say； but for a peril to you。 I see my fears were
unfounded。 You were safe； but in my desire to guard you from what has
come on poor Amy； my feelings； though not wont to overpower me； carried
me further than I intended。'
'Did they？'
'Do not suppose I regret it。 No； no； Laura； those were the most
precious moments in my life； when I drew from you those words and looks
which have been blessed in remembrance ever since； and doubly； knowing；
as I do； that you also prize that day。'
'Yesyes；'
'In the midst of much that was adverse； and with a necessity for a
trust and self…control of which scarce a woman but yourself would have
been capable； you have endured nobly'
'I could bear anything； if you were not going so far away；'
'You will bear that too； Laura； and bravely。 It will not be for ever。'
'How long do you think？'
'I cannot tell。 Several years may pass before I have my promotion。 It
may be that I shall not see that cheek in its fresh bloom again； but I
shall find the same Laura that I left； the same in love； and strength；
and trust。'
'Ah； I shall grow faded and gray； and you will be a sun…burnt old
soldier；' said Laura； smiling； and looking； half sadly； half proudly；
up to his noble features； 'but hearts don't change like faces！'
After they came near the house； they walked up and down the lane for a
long time； for Philip avoided a less public path； in order to keep up
his delusion that he was doing nothing in an underhand way。 It grew
dark； and the fog thickened； straightening Laura's auburn ringlets； and
hanging in dew…drops on Philip's rough coat； but little recked they； it
was such an hour as they had never enjoyed before。 Philip had never so
laid himself open； or assured her so earnestly of the force of his
affection； and her thrills of ecstasy overcame the desolate expectation
of his departure； and made her sensible of strength to bear seven； ten；
twenty years of loneliness and apparent neglect。 She knew him； and he
would never fail her。
Yet； when at last they went in…doors； and Amy followed her to her room；
wondering to find her so wet； and so late； who could have seen the two
sisters without reading greater peace and serenity in the face of the
younger。
Philip felt an elder brother's interest for poor little Amy。 He did
not see much of her； but he compassionated her as a victim to her
mother's imprudence； hoping she would soon be weaned from her
attachment。 He thought her a good； patient little thing； so soft and
gentle as probably not to have the strength and depth that would make
the love incurable； and the better he liked her； the more unfit he
thought her for Guy。 It would have been uniting a dove and a tiger；
and his only fear was； that when he was no longer at hand； Mr。
Edmonstone's weak good…nature might be prevailed on to sacrifice her。
He did his best for her protection； by making his uncle express a
resolution never to admit Guy into his family again； unless the
accusation of gambling was completely disproved。
The last morning came； and Philip went to take leave of Charles。 Poor
Charles was feebler by this time； and too much subdued by pain and
languor to receive him as at first； but the spirit was the same； and
when Philip wished him good…bye； saying he hoped soon to hear he was
better； he returned for answer；
'Good…bye； Philip； I hope soon to hear you are better。 I had rather
have my hip than your mind。'
He was in no condition to be answered； and Philip repeated his good…
bye； little thinking how they were to meet again。
The others were assembled in the hall。 His aunt's eyes were full of
tears； for she loved him dearly； her brother's only son； early left
motherless； whom she had regarded like her own child； and who had so
nobly fulfilled all the fondest hopes。 All his overbearing ways and
uncalled…for interference were forgotten； and her voice gave way as she
embraced him； saying；
'God bless you； Philip； wherever you may be。 We shall miss you very
much！'
Little Amy's hand was put into his； and he squeezed it kindly； but she
could hardly speak her 'good…bye；' for the tears that came； because she
was grieved not to feel more sorry that her highly…esteemed cousin； so
kind and condescending to her； was going away for so very long a time。
'Good…bye； Philip；' said Charlotte； 'I shall be quite grown up by the
time you come home。'
'Don't make such uncivil auguries； Puss；' said her father； but Philip
heard her not； for he was holding Laura's hand in a grasp that seemed
as if it never would unclose。
CHAPTER 21
I will sing； for I am sad；
For many my misdeeds；
It is my sadness makes me glad；
For love for sorrow pleads。WILLIAMS。
After his last interview with Philip； Guy returned to his rooms to
force himself into occupation till his cousin should come to
acknowledge that here； at least； there was nothing amiss。 He trus