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I found what follows lying on my desk one morning。
As you will see； it appears to be the first…person story of a young woman； evidently beautiful and not unskilled in the arts of love。
According to her story； she appears to have been involved； both perilously and romantically； with the same James Bond whose secret…service exploits I myself have written from time to time。
With the manuscript was a note signed 〃Vivienne Michel；〃 assuring me that what she had written was purest truth and from the depths of her heart。
I was much interested in this view of James Bond； through the wrong end of the telescope； so to speak； and； after obtaining clearance for certain minor infringements of the Official Secrets Act； I have much pleasure in sponsoring its publication。
IAN FLEMING
Part One： Me
One： Scaredy Cat
I WAS running away。 I was running away from England； from my childhood； from the winter； from a sequence of untidy； unattractive love…affairs； from the few sticks of furniture and jumble of overworn clothes that my London life had collected around me； and I was running away from drabness； fustiness； snobbery； the claustrophobia of close horizons； and from my inability； although I am quite an attractive rat； to make headway in the rat…race。 In fact I was running away from almost everything except the law。
And I had run a very long way indeed…almost； exaggerating a bit； halfway round the world。 In fact I had e all the way from London to The Dreamy Pines Motor Court； which is ten miles west of Lake George； the famous American tourist resort in the Adirondacks…that vast expanse of mountains； lakes； and pine forests which forms most of the northern territory of New York State。 I had started on September the first； and it was now Friday the thirteenth of October。 When I had left； the grimy little row of domesticated maples in my square had been green； or as green as any tree can be in London in August。 Now； in the billion…strong army of pine trees that marched away northward toward the Canadian border； the real； wild maples flamed here and there like shrapnel…bursts。 And I felt that I； or at any rate my skin； had changed just as much…from the grimy sallowness that had been the badge of my London life to the snap and color and sparkle of living out of doors and going to bed early and all those other dear dull things that had been part of my life in Quebec before it was decided that I must go to England and learn to be a 〃lady。〃 Very unfashionable； of course； this cherry…ripe； strength…through…joy plexion； and I had even stopped using lipstick and nail polish； but to me it had been like sloughing off a borrowed skin and getting back into my own； and I was childishly happy and pleased with myself whenever I looked in the mirror （that's another thing…I'll never say 〃looking…glass〃 again； I just don't have to any more） and found myself not wanting to paint a different face over my own。 I'm not being smug about this。 I was just running away from the person I'd been for the past five years。 I wasn't particularly pleased with the person I was now； but I had hated and despised the other one； and I was glad to be rid of her face。
Station WOKO （they might have dreamed up a grander call…sign！） in Albany； the capital of New York State and about fifty miles due south of where I was； announced that it was six o'clock。 The weather report that followed included a storm warning with gale…force winds。 The storm was moving down from the north and would hit Albany around eight p。m。 That meant that I would be having a noisy night。 I didn't mind。 Storms don't frighten me； and although the nearest living soul； as far as I knew； was ten miles away up the not very good secondary road to Lake George； the thought of the pines that would soon be thrashing outside； the thunder and lightning and rain； made me already feel snug and warm and protected in anticipation。 And alone！ But above all alone！ 〃Loneliness bees a lover； solitude a darling sin。〃 Where had I read that？ Who had written it？ It was so exactly the way I felt； the way that； as a child； I had always felt until I had forced myself to 〃get into the swim；〃 〃be one of the crowd〃…a good sort； on the ball； hep。 And what a hash I had made of 〃togetherness〃！ I shrugged the memory of failure away。 Everyone doesn't have to live in a heap。 Painters； writers； musicians are lonely people。 So are statesmen and admirals and generals。 But then； I added to be fair； so are criminals and lunatics。 Let's just say； not to be too flattering； that true Individuals are lonely。 It's not a virtue…the reverse； if anything。 One ought to share and municate if one is to be a useful member of the tribe。 The fact that I was so much happier when I was alone was surely the sign of a faulty； a neurotic character。 I had said this so often to myself in the past five years that now； that evening； I just shrugged my shoulders and； hugging my solitude to me； walked across the big lobby to the door and went out to have a last look at the evening。
I hate pine trees。 They are dark and stand very still and you can't shelter under them or climb them。 They are very dirty； with a most un…treelike black dirt； and if you get this dirt mixed with their resin they make you really filthy。 I find their jagged shapes vaguely inimical； and the way they mass so closely together gives me the impression of an army of spears barring my passage。 The only good thing about them is their smell； and； when I can get hold of it； I use pine…needle essence in my bath。 Here； in the Adirondacks； the endless vista of pine trees was positively sickening。 They clothe every square yard of earth in the valleys and climb up to the top of every mountain so that the impression is of a spiky carpet spread to the horizon…an endless vista of rather stupid…looking green pyramids waiting to be cut down for matches and coat…hangers and copies of the New York Times。
Five acres or so of these stupid trees had been cleared to build the motel； which is all that this place really was。 〃Motel〃 isn't a good word any longer。 It has bee smart to use 〃Motor Court〃 or 〃Ranch Cabins〃 ever since motels became associated with prostitution； gangsters； and murders； for all of which their anonymity and lack of supervision is a convenience。 The site； touristwise； in the lingo of the trade； was a good one。 There was this wandering secondary road through the forest； which was a pleasant alternative route between Lake George and Glen Falls to the south； and halfway along it was a small lake； cutely called Dreamy Waters； that was a traditional favorite with picnickers。 It was on the southern shore of this lake that the motel had been built； its reception lobby facing the road； with； behind this main building； the rooms fanning out in a semicircle。 There were forty rooms with kitchen； shower； and lavatory； and they all had some kind of view of the lake behind them。 The whole construction and design was the latest thing…glazed pitch…pine frontages and pretty timber roofs all over knobbles； air…conditioning； television in every cabin； children's playground； swimming pool； golf range out over the lake with floating balls （fifty balls； one dollar）…all the gimmicks。 Food？ Cafeteria in the lobby； and grocery and liquor deliveries twice a day from Lake George。 All this for ten dollars single and sixteen double。 No wonder that； with around two hundred thousand dollars' capital outlay and a season lasting only from July the first to the beginning of October； or； so far as the NO VACANCY sign was concerned； from July fourteenth to Labor Day； the owners were finding the going hard。 Or so those dreadful Phanceys had told me when they'd taken me on as receptionist for only thirty dollars a week plus keep。 Thank heavens they were out of my hair！ Song in my heart？ There had been the whole heavenly choir at six o'clock that morning when their shiny station…wagon had disappeared down the road on their way to Glens Falls and then to Troy where the monsters came from。 Mr。 Phancey had made a last grab at me； and I hadn't been quick enough。 His free hand had run like a fast lizard over my body before I had crunched my heel into his instep。 He had let go then。 When his contorted face had cleared； he said softly； 〃All right； sex…box。 Just see that you mind camp good until the boss es to take over the keys tomorrow noon。 Happy dreams tonight。〃 Then he had grinned a grin I hadn't understood； and had gone over to the station…wagon； where his wife had been watching from the driver's seat。 〃e on； Jed；〃 she had said sharply。 〃You can work off those urges on West Street tonight。〃 She put the car in gear and called over to me sweetly； 〃 'By now； cutie…pie。 Write us every day。〃 Then she had wiped the crooked smile off her face and I caught a last glimpse of her withered hatchet profile as the car turned out onto the road。 Phew！ What a couple！ Right out of a book…and what a book！ Dear Diary！ Well； people couldn't e much Worse； and now they'd gone。 From now on； on my travels； the human race must improve！
I had been standing there； looking down the way the Phanceys had gone； remembering them。 Now I turned and looked to the north to see after the weather。 It had been a beautiful day； Swiss clear and hot for the