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We said nothing during this time。 We sat together in her small stone bedroom； rather high up in the oldest tower of our house； with many pieces of gilded furniture； both ancient and new； and then she wiped her eyes and said； 〃He takes care of everyone； you know。 He takes care of my aunts and my uncles； you know。 And where would they be if it weren't for him？ And he's never denied me anything。〃
She went rambling on in her smooth convent…modulated voice。 〃Look at this house。 It's filled with elders whose wisdom has been so good for you children； and all this on account of your father； who is rich enough to have gone anywhere； I suppose； but he is too kind。 Only； Vittorio！ Vittorio； don't。。。 I mean 。。。 with the girls in the village。〃
I almost said； in a spasm of desire to fort her； that I had only fathered one bastard to my knowledge； and he was just fine； when I realized this would have been a perfect disaster。 I said nothing。
That might have been the only conversation I ever had with my mother。 But it's not really a conversation because I didn't say anything。
She was right； however。 Three of her aunts and two of her uncles lived with us in our great high…walled pound； and these old people lived well； always sumptuously dressed in the latest fabrics from the city； and enjoying the purest courtly life imaginable。 I couldn't help but benefit from listening to them all the time； which I did； and they knew plenty of all the world。
It was the same with my father's uncles； but of course it was their land； this； their family's； and so they felt more entitled； I assume； as they had done most of the heroic fighting in the Holy Land； or so it seemed； and they quarreled with my father over anything and everything； from the taste of the meat tarts served at supper to the distractingly modern style of the painters he hired from Florence to decorate our little chapel。
That was another sort of modern thing he did； the matter of the painters； maybe the only modern thing other than liking things made of glass。
Our little chapel had for centuries been bare。 It was； like the four towers of our castle and all the walls around； built of a blond stone which is mon in Northern Tuscany。 This is not the dark stone you see so much in Florence； which is gray and looks perpetually unclean。 This northern stone is almost the color of the palest pink roses。
But my father had brought pupils up from Florence when I was very young； good painters who had studied with Piero della Francesca and other such； to cover these chapel walls with murals taken from the lovely stories of saints and Biblical giants in the books known as The Golden Legend。
Not being himself a terribly imaginative man； my father followed what he had seen in the churches of Florence in his design and instructed these men to tell the tales of John the Baptist； patron saint of the city and cousin of Our Lord； and so it was that during the last years of my life on earth； our chapel was enfolded with representations of St。 Elizabeth； St。 John； St。 Anne； the Blessed Mother； Zachary and angels galore； all dressed … as was the way of the time … in their Florentine finest。
It was to this 〃modern〃 painting； so unlike the stiffer work of Giotto or Cimabue； that my elderly uncles and aunts objected。 As for the villagers； I don't think they exactly understood it all either； except they were so overawed in the main by the chapel at a wedding or baptism that it didn't matter。
I myself of course was terrifically happy to see these paintings made； and to spend time with the artists； who were all gone by the time that my life was brought to a halt by demonic slaughter。
I'd seen plenty of the greatest painting in Florence and had a weakness for drifting about； looking at splendid visions of angels and saints in the rich dedicated chapels of the Cathedrals； and had even … on one of my trips to Florence with my father … in Cosimo's house； glimpsed the tempestuous painter Filippo Lippi； who was at that time actually under lock and key there to make him finish a painting。
I was much taken with the plain yet pelling man； the way that he argued and schemed and did everything but throw a tantrum to get permission to leave the palazzo while lean； solemn and low…voiced Cosimo just smiled and talked him down more or less out of his hysteria； telling him to get back to work and that he would be happy when he was finished。
Filippo Lippi was a monk； but he was mad for women and everybody knew it。 You could say that he was a favorite bad guy。 It was for women that he wanted out of the palazzo； and it was even suggested later at the supper table of our hosts in Florence on that visit that Cosimo ought to lock a few women in the room with Filippo； and that maybe that would keep Filippo happy。 I don't think Cosimo did any such thing。 If he had； his enemies would have made it the grand news of Florence。
Let me make note； for it is very important。 I never forgot that glimpse of the genius Filippo； for that is what he was … and is … to me。
〃So what did you so like about him？〃 my father asked me。
〃He's bad and good；〃 I said； 〃not just one or the other。 I see a war going on inside of him！ And I saw some of his work once； work he did with Fra Giovanni〃 … this was the man later called Fra Angelico by all the world … 〃and I tell you； I think he is brilliant。 Why else would Cosimo put up with such a scene？ Did you hear him！〃 〃And Fra Giovanni is a saint？〃 asked my father。
〃Hmmmmm； yes。 And that's fine； you know； but did you see the torment in Fra Filippo？ Hmmm； I liked it。〃 My father raised his eyebrows。
On our next and very last trip to Florence； he took me to see all of Filippo's paintings。 I was amazed that he had remembered my interest in this man。 We went from house to house to look at the loveliest works； and then to Filippo's workshop。
There an altarpiece missioned by Francesco Maringhi for a Florentine church … The Coronation of the Virgin … was well under way； and when I saw this work； I nearly fainted dead from shock and love of it。 I couldn't leave it alone。 I sighed and wept。
I had never seen anything as beautiful as this painting； with its immense crowd of still attentive faces； its splendid collection of angels and saints； its lithe and graceful feline women and willowy celestial men。 I went crazy for it。
My father took me to see two more of his works； which were both paintings of the Annunciation。
Now； I have mentioned that as a child； I had played the Angel Gabriel ing to the Virgin to announce the Conception of Christ in her womb； and the way we played； he was supposed to be a pretty beguiling and virile angel； and Joseph would e in and； lo； find this overwhelming male with his pure ward； the Blessed Mary。
We were a worldly bunch； but you know； we gave the play a little spice。 I mean we cooked it up a bit。 I don't think it says anything in scripture about St。 Joseph happening on a tryst。
But that had been my favorite role； and I had particularly enjoyed paintings of the Annunciation。
Well； this last one I saw before I left Florence； done by Filippo sometime in the 1440s； was beyond anything I had beheld before。
The angel was truly unearthly yet physically perfect。 Its wings were made of peacock feathers。 I was sick with devotion and covetousness。 I wished we could buy this thing and take it back home。 That wasn't possible。 No works of Filippo were on the market then。 So my father finally dragged me away from this painting； and off we went home the next day or so。
Only later did I realize how quietly he listened to what I said as I ranted on and on about Fra Filippo：
〃It's delicate； it's original； and yet it is mendable according to everybody's rules； that's the genius of it； to change； but not so much； to be inimitable； yet not beyond the mon grasp； and that's what he's done； Father； I tell you。〃 I was unstoppable。
〃This is what I think about that man；〃 I said。 〃The carnality in him； the passion for women； the near beastly refusal to keep his vows is at war always with the priest； for look； he wears his robes； he is Fra Filippo。 And out of that war； there es into the faces he paints a look of utter surrender。〃 My father listened。
〃That's it；〃 I said。 〃Those characters reflect his own continued promise with the forces he cannot reconcile； and they are sad； and wise； and never innocent； and always soft； reflective of mute torment。〃
On the way back home； as we were riding together through the forest； up a rather steep road； very casually my father asked me if the painters who had done our chapel were good。
〃Father； you're joking；〃 I said。 〃They were excellent。〃
He smiled。 〃I didn't know； you know；〃 he said。 〃I just hired the best。〃 He shrugged。 I smiled。
Then he laughed with good nature。 I never asked him when and if I could leave home again to study。 I think I figured I could make both of us happy。
We must have made twenty…five stops on that last journey home from Florence。 We were wined and dined at one castle after another； and wandered in and out of the new villas； lavish and full of light； and given over to their abundant gardens。 I clung to nothing in particular because I thought it was my life； all those arbors covered wi