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checking。 I settled back into the chair； switched the radio back on； and kept looking。
He was out there somewhere。 Thank God for the birds。 My stomach thrilled； sending a wave of gut…joy through me； making me shiver despite the heat。 That lying old shit； trying to lure me away from the house just because he was too frightened to face Eric。 My God； I had been stupid not to hear the sheer mendacity in his sodden voice。 And he had the nerve to shout at me for drinking。 At least I did it when I knew I could afford to； not when I knew I'd need all my faculties at their peak to deal with a crisis。 The shit。 Call himself a man！
I had a few more drinks from the still cool jug of orange； ate an apple and some bread and cheese； went on scanning。 The evening darkened quickly as the sun dipped and the cloud closed up。 The thermals which had opened the holes over the land were dying； and the blanket hanging over the hills and the plain reasserted itself； grey and featureless。 After a while I heard thunder again； and something in the air turned sharp and threatening。 I was keyed up； and couldn't help waiting for the phone to ring； though I knew that it wouldn't。 How long would it take for my father to realise I was late？ Had he expected me to e by bike？ Had he fallen down in a gutter somewhere； or was he already staggering at the head of some posse of townies heading for the island with burning torches to apprehend the Dog Killer ？
No matter。 I would see anybody ing； even in this light； and could go out to wele my brother or escape the house to hide out on the island if the vigilantes appeared。 I turned the radio off so I could hear any shouts from the mainland； and strained my eyes to search through the fading light。 After a while I raced down to the kitchen and got a small packed meal together and stuffed it into a canvas bag in the loft。 It was just in case I did have to leave the house and did meet Eric。 He might be hungry。 I settled into the seat； scanning the shadows over the darkening land。 In the far distance； at the base of the hills； lights moved on the road； glittering in the dusk； flashing like irregular lighthouses through the trees； round corners； over hills。 I rubbed my eyes and stretched； trying to get the weariness out of my system。
I thought ahead； added some painkillers to the bag I would take out of the house if I had to。 This sort of weather might bring on Eric's migraine； and he might need some relief。 I hoped he didn't have one。
I yawned； widened my eyes； ate another apple。 The vague shadows under the clouds turned darker。
I woke up。
It was dark； I was still in the chair； arms crossed under my head； resting on the metal surround of the skylight。 And something； a noise inside the house； had woken me。 I sat for a second； feeling my heart race； feeling my back plain about the position it had been in for so long。 Blood made its painful way into the parts of my arms the weight of my head had restricted the supply to。 I spun round in the chair； quickly and quietly。 The loft was black； but I didn't sense anything。 I touched a button on my watch； discovered it was after eleven。 I had slept for hours。 Idiot！ Then I heard somebody moving about downstairs； indistinct footsteps； a door closing； other noises。 Glass smashed。 I felt the hair on the back of my neck go up； the second time in one week。 I clenched my jaw； told myself to stop taking fright and do something： It might be Eric or it might be my father。 I would go down and find out。 To be safe； I would take my knife。
I got off the seat； went carefully to where the door was； feeling my way round the roughness of the chimney bricks。 I stopped there； took the tail of my shirt out and let it hang over my cords； concealing the knife where it hung from my belt。 I eased myself silently down into the dark landing。 A light was on in the hall； right at the bottom； and it cast strange sets of shadows； yellow and dim； up over the landing walls。 I went along to the banisters； looked over the rail。 I couldn't see anything。 The noises had stopped。 I sniffed the air。
I could smell the smoky； pubby smell of drink。 It must be my father。 I felt relieved。 Just then I heard him e out of the lounge。 A noise washed out behind him like an ocean roaring。 I came away from the rail and stood listening。 He was staggering； bumping off the walls and tripping on the stairs。 I heard him breathing heavily and muttering something。 I listened； let the smell and sound e up。 I stood and gradually I calmed myself。 I heard my father get to the first landing； where the phone was。 Then unsteady footsteps。
'Frang！' he shouted。 I kept still； said nothing。 Just instinct； I suppose； or habit born of all the times I've pretended not to be where I really am； and listened to people when they have thought they were alone。 I breathed slowly。
'Frang！' he yelled。 I got ready to go back up to the loft； shifting back； on tip…toe； avoiding the places where I knew the floor creaked。 My father hammered on the door of the first…floor toilet； then cursed when he discovered it was open。 I heard him start up the stairs； towards me。 His steps pattered； irregular； and he grunted as he stumbled and hit a wall。 I went quietly up the ladder； swung up and on to the bare wood floor of the loft； lay there with my head a metre or so from the hole； my hands on the brickwork； ready to duck behind the flue if my father attempted to look into the loft from the hole。 I blinked。 My father hammered on my room door。 He opened it。
'Frang！ he shouted again。 Then 'Ah。。。 fuck。。。。' My heart leaped as I lay there。 I had never heard him swear before。 It sounded obscene in his mouth； not like the casual way Eric or Jamie said it。 I heard him breathing under the hole； the smell of him ing up through it to me： whisky and tobacco。
The steps again； unsteady down the landing； then his door； and it slamming shut。 I breathed again； only then realising that I had been holding my breath。 My heart was pounding fit to burst and I was almost surprised my father hadn't been able to hear it booming through the floorboards above him。 I waited for a while； but there were no more noises； just that distant white sound from the lounge。 It sounded as though he had left the television on； between channels。
I lay there； gave him five minutes； then I got up slowly； brushed myself down； tucked my shirt in； picked up the bag in the darkness； attached my catapult to my belt； felt around for my waistcoat and found it； then with all my gear on crept down the ladder and on to the landing； then along it and softly downstairs。
In the lounge； the television sparkled its colourful hiss to an empty room。 I went to it； clicked it off。 I turned to go and saw my father's tweed jacket lying crumpled in a chair。 I picked it up and it jingled。 I felt through the pockets as I wrinkled my nose at the stench of drink and smoke ing off it。 My hand closed around a bunch of keys。
I brought them out and stared at them。 There was the front…door key； the back…door key； the cellar key； shed key； a couple of smaller ones I didn't recognise； and another key； a key to one of the rooms in the house； like the key for my room but a different cut。 I felt my mouth start to dry up； and saw my hand start to shake in front of me。 Sweat sparkled on it； beading suddenly in the lines of the palm。 It might be his bedroom key or。。。。
I ran upstairs； three at a time； only breaking rhythm for the noisy ones。 I went up past the study； up to my father's bedroom。 The door was ajar； its key was in the lock。 I could hear my father snoring。 I closed the door gently and ran back down to the study。 I put the key in the lock； and it turned with well…oiled ease。 I stood there for a second or two； then turned the handle； opened the door。
I put the light on。 The study。
It was cluttered and full； stuffy and warm。 The light in the centre of the ceiling had no shade； and was very bright。 There were two desks； a bureau； and a camp bed with a mess of sheets lying twisted on it。 There was a bookcase； two large tables standing together covered with various bottles and pieces of chemical apparatus； test tubes and bottles and a condenser linked to a sink in the corner。 The place smelled of something like ammonia。 I turned； stuck my head out of the door into the hall； listened； heard very distant snoring； then took the key and closed the door； locking myself in and leaving the key in the door。
It was as I turned away from the door that I saw it。 A specimen…jar standing on top of the bureau； which was placed just to the side of the door and would be hidden from the hall outside by the door when it was open。 In the jar was clear liquid…alcohol； I assumed。 In the alcohol was a tiny； torn set of male genitalia。
I looked at it； my hand still on the key I had been turning； and my eyes filled。 I felt something in my throat； something from deep in me； and my eyes and nose seemed to fill and quickly burst。 I stood and I cried； letting the tears trickle down my cheeks and into my mouth； salting it。 My nose ran； and I sniffed and snorted； and I